it's a beautiful day.

2010-04-23T03:01:00.005+08:00

definitely one of the must watch local movies.

love the localized scenes.

first love and and ice kacang.

i never knew there’s a connection there.

awesome stuffs.

♥

sometimes.

2010-02-28T03:12:00.001+08:00

i have to admit
sometimes
i am really tired.

walking on sunshine.

2010-02-11T03:21:00.003+08:00

i am home.

back to astro, sleeping in, opening the fridge to packets upon packets of chrysanthemum tea, my bed, privacy, fresh clean(er) air, kolo mee, nanyang coffee shop, teh c peng special, ironed clothes, less traffic jams, home cooked food, free driver, miss lau's, cycling, taman bendahara.

happy chinese new year everyone :D

yours eventually,
me.

roar!

2010-02-10T03:28:00.009+08:00

the mooting is over, rolled over, moreover, and rolled over.
this is me writing nonsensical sentence.
call me talented. :D

longer post next time.
maybe a picure of jeanette the chipette.
should i or should i not uhuk uhuk :P
i shall retire to my bed now.
kthankyoubai.

oh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI CHEANG!!!!!
my roommate and ah long and diet partner :D

2pm.

2010-02-05T11:32:00.006+08:00

every night i swear i will sleep early.
every night i find new obsession :D

owls. shadows. tears.

2010-01-31T22:20:00.002+08:00

That night incident kinda spilled over this whole weekend.

people breaking.
people breaking down.
people breaking apart.
people breaking up.

and the world swirls.

人回来就好
其他的
再看着办吧
:)

left right left right left

2010-01-29T20:24:00.015+08:00

i am just not motivated.
but. but.
i am determined to get this done by tonight.
i cannot leave the laptop until i am done with this.
i am now employing c.n blue to take your place.

they are fast becoming one of my favorite kpop acts :)

If i get any more confused, i will have to order mcd again.

the white one is evil.

2010-01-29T03:24:00.005+08:00

White lie: A white lie would cause only relatively minor discord if it were uncovered, and typically offers some benefit to the hearer. White lies are often used to avoid offense, such as complimenting something one finds unattractive. In this case, the lie is told to avoid the harmful realistic implications of the truth. As a concept, it is largely defined by local custom and cannot be clearly separated from other lies with any authority.

世事难料
莫名其妙

2010-01-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

hello you.

2010-01-25T23:44:00.008+08:00

Hey =).
haven't been here for awhile.
life's a state of normalcy.
nothing high and low.
but i'm contented :D

how are you?

总是徘徊在安全与不安全地带
我其实真的不喜欢所谓抽象或者浮夸的美

创新和勇敢
是的我需要

女巫说
我这次回来
带了风尘味
讲话的态度不一样了
生活方式变得很老人

我想说的是
就算我老了
依然是一朵花

.

2009-10-24T19:46:00.004+08:00

=)))))).
guess who's back

faith.

2009-08-17T02:53:00.002+08:00

a.
b.
c.
d.
e.

i will shoot a man if they make my precious tvxq splits up.

.

2009-08-15T04:31:00.005+08:00

the hours i sleep everyday.
see, we always planned to sleep early but in the end we never stick to our time. like now. and the ridiculous amount of alarm that i set but didn't work.

need to learn how to sleep early.
need to learn it's ok to not finish one episode of my drama in one sitting.

midnight indulgence ♥

2009-07-26T05:40:00.014+08:00

more like 6 in the morning lol.

and guess who’s making an acting debut?

for real :D

fangirls have emerged.

a series of unfortunate events.

2009-07-24T03:03:00.012+08:00

one after another.
very bad feng-shui.
maybe i should start chanting.

i’m afraid of quick judgments and mistakes that everybody makes.

i don't like the feeling of being underestimated,

because i know what i can do.
but sometimes when a person emits this kind of emotion to you,
it gets you, and it makes you doubting yourself.

then again,
there really isn't one huge happiness that reaches everybody.

feel contented. at least you're loved. =D

so stop being unhappy can?

back to basics.

2009-07-22T01:48:00.005+08:00

i think i'm a worry-wart.

2009-07-19T03:53:00.012+08:00

i always have something to worry about.
it keeps me up at night and nibbles at me.
maybe i should be worried about my worrying hahahaha

1. how was your day hon?
2. like shit.
1. lol shit is an easy thing to do, try use the word constipated.
2. ....

by the time i recognize this moment,

this moment will be gone,

but i will bend the light,

pretend that it somehow lingered on.

clarity - john mayer

=)
tata.

i promise this is the last one

2009-07-18T02:31:00.019+08:00

Emma Watson at Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince London Premiere, 7 July 2009.

she is just divine.

=)))

[i'm an addict]

2009-07-17T01:19:00.007+08:00

i’m in the mood,
to blog many many today.

i think i’m easily hooked onto stuffs.

like a particular movie, song, series or band.
if it gets my attention i will google it nonstop and not get bored.

=D

[awww]

2009-07-17T00:51:00.011+08:00

guess who's the cutest in half-blood prince

2009-07-16T23:10:00.005+08:00

♥

[bigtothebang]

2009-07-16T02:16:00.028+08:00

you know,
the weird thing about blogging is you tend to assume that you know a person because you read his/her posts or status updates on a regular basis. and you judge them based on what they've written about themselves, which is probably vague and incomplete.

i do that sometimes.

which is why i haven't been updating lately,
and also because i'm watching the complete series of charmed dvd. =D

but i think i'm going to get back on the wagon soon heheh.

--------------------

life would be perfect,

with me waving red light stick at dbsk's concert.
it has been a long time, boys.

-------------

found this incredible cute pet website and they have all sort of funny and cute photos. image overload.=P

---------------

shows i want to watch:

partner

triple

family outing

宮心計

castle

10 things i hate about you

SO MANY i don't think i'll have the time.
how how HOW?

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cannot waiitttttttttttttttttttttttt.

joining the cult.

2009-06-29T17:11:00.009+08:00

click click click

microblogging doesn't sound bad
=D.

oh salt water.

2009-06-20T02:45:00.023+08:00

1.

2.

3.

4.

a.

b.

c.

d.

hello =DDDD.
i've decided to stop hiding =)
have been keeping you guys out these few weeks,
there are so many things that i think i can talk about.
but at the end of the day, poof it's gone,
right.

beach.
and sunshine.
and seabreeze.
port dickson.
tomorrow.

lalalalala.

2009-05-28T21:38:00.005+08:00

CCT1010. 9am tomorrow.

我的房间里有道门有盏灯有张桌与床还有很多书
它决定在这星期内尽情的乱

=)

[bubble gum]

2009-05-26T23:55:00.010+08:00

hello korean guys, why are you so cute

my brain is rotting in the room.
let this phase pass quickly.
don't fall asleep.
please try harder.
i ain't got much time left for linger.

segamat. kluang. singapore. and then a secret place.
sounds like a nice spontaneous trip.
why would i say no =D.

happy.
because even when we fail to see it,
life had always been way too good =).

genki deska?

2009-05-23T14:18:00.014+08:00

self-hypnosis.

i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleepy.
i'm sleeeeepppppaaaaay.

i did not sleep the whole night.

read through my notes 3 times.
thought i was going crazy.

spent 2 hours for my 3-hour paper. insanity certified.
was writing super fast to make sure that i don't have the time to stop and think twice, before the "ah-i-can-do-this-question" moment is flown away.

brain is not functioning now.
i think i'm painfully exhausted.
off to bed.
attempt number x.

近况

2009-05-19T03:48:00.011+08:00

对面房一号说

#

吃饭。吃饭。吃饭。
睡觉。睡觉。
读书。读书。读书。
考试。考试。考试。考试。考试。

一天吃三次饭，睡两次觉，读三次书，准备五天的考试。

逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。
逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。逍遥。

五次考试后，逍遥十四天。

##

亲爱的对面房一号

我只想给你这篇
惊天地泣鬼神
深入民心
不是文章的文章
掌声加鬼吼 (<--有没有很熟悉)

明天的考试
加油
就酱

还有
对面房二号
威廉可以分你一半
但小龙我要了

最近这些日子
谢啦
掰

words meet heartbeats

2009-05-18T01:01:00.016+08:00

why is there no oxygen in this room??!

me: what the hell? when did you get hot?!
siwon: oh, i was just born this way.

=D

have you ever wondered why do you use the word 'i' too much?

i'm still keeping myself in this bubble.
the bubble of safety and comfort.
i've been and still am very much blessed. i do know that.

i want to use terms other than just 'i'.

hello, my name is i-think-i'm-stressed-up.

all-singing, all-dancing crap of this world.

2009-05-13T11:19:00.009+08:00

breakfast breakfast breakfast
dimsum, charsiewpao, chrysanthemum tea

blah blah blah
blah as in aimless, blah as in nothingness, blah as in demotivated

trips trips trips
money money money

song song song

juniors no more =)

this is the part

2009-05-03T19:57:00.035+08:00

where you say,

home is best. ♥ =)

p.s that is a thai dog.

p.p.s my dad won the teddy bear from a fun fair game (i think it belongs to my brother but anyway)

p.p.p.s the barbie doll (in the box) was my 16th birthday present from my classmates. they asked me what would i like as a present. i said barbie doll. O__o i used to be a huge fan of barbie cause i loved the fact that you could dress up a pretty doll, do her hair, pretend that she's going to a ball, then talk to other barbie dolls like those taitai. it was magical. i still watch barbie movies when they show it on tv3 =D.

p.p.p.p.s the doll was a reward from my dad for getting 1st place when i was in standard 1. the kind that talks and walks. it was a craze back then =D. i wanted to use it for my korean class to present about human's body parts but the guy in my group thought it was too gay so.

p.p.p.p.p.s this post really gave me a nolstagic, walking-down-the-memory-lane kinda feeling. funny how time flies sigh.

so bright. smile.

2009-04-28T15:02:00.017+08:00

"here, here and here. he pointed to his heart, mind and ears."
have you heard it yet?

hello people. =D
it has been quite some time.
i don't even know where to start.
the whole week is like one jumbled up ball of yarn with all different colour of threads.

late at night, before i go to bed and when i'm walking around the living room deciding what time to sleep, i will text my brother and tell him of my daily sufferings, quite happily i must add.

"tension sial T_____T."
he calls and asks me to call him back.

"sup?"
"very stressed le how?"
"what happened?"
"haiya you won't understand one very long the story."
"T____________T then you call me for what? i'm in a football game eh."

but i'm your beloved jie jie~~~~
*sits in a dark corner

despite the constant ignorance, i still miss home sigh.
i'm going back tomorrow yuhuu!!
brother is rotting at home since it's his study week. he's supposed to go to u.s this summer break but it has been postponed (mummy: he's still young i'm so worried; papa: still can go next year what no harm right?) so two of us are going to singapore during my term break =)))).

you see us smiling happily
you see us playing cheerfully.
you see us acting borderline psychoticly.
you see us laughing at the lamest jokes that we crack.

ohhhh but before that i need to worry about my finals.

been thinking of studying (note: "thinking")
been wanting to get out of bed (here's "wanting")

don't think. don't try. just do it.
*ties a red cloth around my head which says jiayou

it's the smile i love the most.

你, 愿意跟我们交换生命吗?

2009-04-19T01:57:00.012+08:00

click

[活着]本身就是一份美好的礼物。
你愿意帮我们好好活着吗?

我
Love Life。

have been staring at this column for pretty long.

2009-04-18T02:31:00.016+08:00

here comes the (weekly) update. =D

a. the funeral

it’s these small things that you remember,
the little imperfections that make them perfect,
for you.

b. of ah sang

rest in peace.
something stirred when i found out about her death.
i pressed my soft bones.
we are only human.

c. assignment.exam.presentation.muet.theatre.

same old story.
life's gonna be much better after 26th april.

d. myself

monotonous is the word.

recently i’ve been blocking out alot of things in my life.
perhaps i just feel that getting to know all the incidents and behind-the-scenes that are going around does not have an effect to my life what so ever, instead they bring in all the unnecessaries and problems so why would i want them in my life.

or maybe i've learnt the fact that there are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept. things we have no control over.

e. for eye candy =)))))

my man. ♥

poke her face.

2009-04-11T03:09:00.027+08:00

[happiness #1] is

to be able to just reach out my hands and grab a book.
to stare at books and fall asleep.
tiny bliss in an afternoon.

[frustration #1] is

reality check.
exam on monday.
notes staring irritatingly at me.

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

[happiness #2] is

the fact that david archuleta is in kl now.

he is going to perform in front of screaming fans.

[frustration #2] is

the fact that i am in malacca now.
T_____T

i am not one of the screaming ones in kl.
T__________T

*proceeds to tell myself repeatedly that he's not worth my time*

i don't really know all songs of him.
the mall would be super packed.
i have to study for my exam.
he is short.

*nods vigorously*

i was pretty much consoled until i went online,
and he was all over the place.

baju melayu!! what else can i say. *sayang

so what if he's short.
or if he's only eighteen.
or if i know only crush.

performance now.

2009-04-04T00:08:00.042+08:00

click

oh well.
this is really happening isn't it.

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=)
quite nice to wake up feeling the cold breeze by the not-so-heavy-rain outside. it’s fantastic when you’re indoor.

my blogging has been so inconsistent lately,
explain the extended absence.
heheh.

i wrote a super long post yesterday night but decided not to put it up. i don’t want to whine incessantly and keep going on about how i feel, erm, whatever that i'm feeling now. when i write sad gloomy stuff i'm going to be all depressed i have to go sulk in dark corners and shed tears to wet handkerchief. imma look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism comes true haiiyakkk!! =D. i'm one with the special ability to be happy at all times after all uhuk uhuk.

---------------

anyway,
*switches to happy tone*
went to watch confessions of a shopaholic yesterday with sara and joshua (a bit unexpected but a great companion nonetheless =D). i'm a huge fan of the series. i have read the books over and over again for too many times. and i usually don't like it when a movie is adapted from a successful book because they leave out important things most of the time. think harry potter.

surprisingly, the movie was actually a lot better than i'd thought since i was told that they changed the whole storyline and took almost nothing from the book. except for the names. i enjoyed the movie =D. it was nice and colorful and funny. i thought the guy who collects debt looks alot like a younger version of myint zan though.

aside from hugh dancy, my favourite thing about the movie was the soundtrack, escpecially this song >>

natasha bedingfield - again

hands over my head
thinking what else could go wrong.
would have stayed in bed
how can the day be so long.

never believed
that things happen for a reason
but how this turned out
removed all my doubts
so believe

then for you
i’d do it all over again
do it all over again
all i went through
led me to you
so i'd do it all over again
for you.

i missed the first train
stood out in the rain all day
little did i know
when i caught the next train
there you were
to sweep me away
guess that’s what i waited for.

never believed
that things happen for a reason
but how this turned out
removed all my doubts
so believe

then for you
i’d do it all over again
do it all over again
all i went through
led me to you
so i'd do it all over again
for you.

who ever thought a day gone so wrong
would turn out so lovely.
so glad i found you
even though the day went so wrong
i wouldn’t change a thing.

i’d do it, i’d do it all over again
do it all over again
all i went through
led me to you
so i’d a do it all over again
for you.

i’d do it all over
i’d do it all over
i’d do it all over for you
for you
all i went through
led me to you
so i'd do it all over again
for you.

who ever thought a day gone so wrong
would turn out so lovely
who ever thought a day gone so wrong
would turn out so lovely

download

nice lyrics, sad tune.

-------------------------

on an unrelated note,
gd's hair finally explodes hahaha

plain weird. who's going to buy the phone?

i've been following big bang since they debuted in 2006,
but seriously,
hot issue's days were so much better.
they've been repeating the winning formula for too many times.
still a v.i.p nonetheless =P.
it's ok if you don't understand this part heheh.

---------------

oh.
my phone is certified dead.

some walk some fly.

2009-03-26T15:43:00.006+08:00

i wonder if i am going to be on a standstill permanently.
----------

mid week again why so fast?!
it has been much of a resting come slacking week =D
i've a list of to-dos and i'm just getting started.
mehhhhhhhh.

time for nap = then do work = die die die

thank you.
and bye bye.

[this place]

2009-03-19T13:20:00.010+08:00

is an eye opener.

in came the light.

2009-03-16T00:24:00.006+08:00

Me: I CAN DO THIS!!! *flashing peace sign*

inner me: you sure?

Me: YESSSS VERY SURE!!!!

inner me: but you have been procrastinati...

Me: SHUDDUP I SAID I CAN DO THIS!!!

speed news.

2009-03-13T21:01:00.017+08:00

1.

i wouldn't say that i'm an environmentalist/ a tree-hugger myself but hey, switching off your lights and everything else you can switch off for an hour won't harm right? even 8tv is committed to the message of earth hour, by halting transmission for the first time in history, on the 28th march from 8:30-9:30pm. click here to read more.

2.
you'd probably have heard this the nth time, but i blog frequently when i'm stressed. yes exam is near again so bare with my ranting. studying for my tests when i was still in school, meaning take out textbook, put textbook on table, read story book and when mom/dad comes near, put story book away and wait for the coast to clear. miss doing that uhuk uhuk. C=

3.
i don't know why do i feel so lethargic today. like. not in the mood to interact that much. i'll probably feel the same way tomorrow, so don't mind me, unless you want to hear me say "oh", "haha", "mmkay".

4.
i've been promised a new hamster after the incident of the curious case of missing wantan. i know you loathe the sight of fast-runner-wriggling-geli-nonstopmoving-hamster so thank you very much mwah mwah =D.

5.

vol.3 > super nice!

6.
don't scroll down if you're
(i) a major fan of twilight and/or
(ii) an anti of tvxq

i have warned you
but he's definitely the hottest asian vampire =DD.
lol at the pronounciation of vampire in korean > baem-pah-yiaww

7.
if you are confused about the point of this post, well there is no point.
i can just feel all the ups and downs in one post terror or not.
ok enough. study. or maybe i should sleep. no. should study.

why like that?!!

2009-03-12T01:44:00.009+08:00

10.30pm
msn pm: where's my hamster?!!

10.37pm
msn pm: my wantan went missing!!

joceyn:
your hamster hilang?!

rinoa:
sapoh what happened to your ham ham?

kok jun:
why do bad things always happen to your hamster one?!

brother:
don't worry my housemate's hammie went missing too but i found him in the toilet 2 days later.

siew mee:
maybe he tried to pull a superhammie stunt and jumped off the building. or he fell into the drainage hole.

THE HORRORRRRRR

*looked around my room and turned to roomie*

"do you think the hamster is in our room and he'll come to sleep on our head or something?"

*straight-faced*

"ok."

i need to take up sewing.

2009-03-11T02:03:00.012+08:00

i do weird things in the middle of my sleep.

- like sending emails and reading.
- why did i wake up.

i’m seriously bored out of my mind even though i need to do my work.

- like developing a relationship with my criminal notes.
- and scratching my head over our drama script. (sorry la late submission what to do very lazy somemore raining very nice to sleep thinking now ok)

I DREAD I DREAD I DREAD.

i have no opinion on the opinion piece. how?

2009-03-07T11:43:00.004+08:00

我很爱听韩国歌曲

爱得要死

就算听不懂他们唱什么我也会跟着唱

虽然都唱得乱七八糟

和和和 C:

please don't stop the rain.

2009-03-05T13:40:00.014+08:00

animator vs. animation by alan becker
i loled quite loudly. =D

click click click click click

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11.00am
undisturbed sleep,
only to be waken by familiarity.

1.57pm
my little guilty obsession.
soooo many korean variety shows. =))
(i refuse to admit i kinda like ss501)

2.00pm
watching the sky.
waiting for it to rain.
oh wait.
my clothes are still in the washing machine aren't they.
----------

colourmeplease.

take this test.

Name: qiu jin
Date: 3/5/2009
Colorgenics Number: 45021637

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ? this is a part of your character and charm.

Everything seems to be going against you at this time. Try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. Nothing is going as you would plan. The situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. It would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!
----------

what's wrong with me.
as a person.
stop. go. back. stop.

*takes deep breath*

sebagai kesimpulannya,
i'm feeling sleepy now.
i'm stuck with the same notes now for 4 days,
only managing to read 3 rows every night before i doze off.

going back tomorrow yuhuu =DDD.
bringing hammie back!!
pa said he's tired of taking care of him.
because he bites.
the wantan. not my pa.

the best thing still.

2009-02-28T00:54:00.011+08:00

good times last.
all the laughters in the world.
many many more memories to create as we go along the way.

happy 21st, sara=).

on hold.

2009-02-26T12:35:00.040+08:00

SaengiL Chukahae to my friends who are celebrating their birthday this month yuhuu!!!!

# li cheang (feb 6th)
# tvxq's uknow (feb 6th)
# qjin (feb 15th)
# txvq's max (feb 18th)
# sara (feb 21st)
# rinoa (feb 24th)
# chee juan (feb 25th)
# taitai (feb 26th)

yalo tvxq's members are also my friends what to do very busy heheh.

1. i hate keeping things in my head. if i'm going to store for more than 5 things, i have to write something down to distract myself, which is why i'm blogging now. because something is bothering me. very the much. *grumbles grumbles grumbles*

2. i like to study with my earphones on, even if nothing is actually playing.

3. sometimes if i'm not satisfied with what was happening in my dream at the time of my waking, i'd just conclude it as i see fit, during the day. i still do that.

4. i love it when people are happy. i enjoy it even more when i have had a hand in making them so.

5. keep check to myself. don't sleep too much.

6. i watch world wrestling entertainment with my dad and my brother. i love john cena.

7. confession. i’m a freaking noob and there are loads of things that i've not done before. i went clubbing for the very first time yesterday. bye bye clubbing virginity! *waves* i can proudly tell you that i have experienced this activity called clubbing =D. nope don’t love the booze and my hair smelling like smoke (washed my hair 3 times afterwards but still smelling like smoke T.T), love the music though. and when they started playing lady gaga's poker face i was super excited. but riggghht, i'm having a massive headache now. and for a moment i thought i was deaf when i stepped out of the club, like someone had put bubble gum in my ears. not really my place.

Joanna Wang Ruo-Lin.

2009-02-17T16:20:00.006+08:00

a 1988er.
jazz. ballad.
and she's good like that.

Joanna Wang - Nobody's a nun

I was blown away =D.

her wiki
her youtube

she also does covers on her favourite songs and it's totally amazing!!
go download her album!!!
er i mean go get it without paying money huhuhu.

Happy (belated) valentine's and i'm 20 already?!

2009-02-15T03:50:00.013+08:00

i chose this picture because he resembles my hamster the most =D.

Yes, my birthday falls on 15th Feb, which is one day after the v-day. The thing is, I don't get double gifts like what those people say, I would get a joint gift instead. There was this guy who once gave me a valentine gift and a birthday card on V and said, "nahh, this is for today and tomorrow." >.>

Anyway, valentine's this year was spent watching American Idol Season 8 during the day and hanging out with bunch of friends at night. One thing that drives me crazy is if you want to go out to eat, it's practically impossible because every place is so crowded. And we settled for McD instead of the original plan of Nando's because apparently, they only serve valentine's menu on the v-day. weihh discrimination meh?! We talked bits here and about school and all. Had a simple cut cake thingy at 12am and we continued talking.

I mean. 20. seriously. when did that happen?!!
Plently of well wishes and blessings, from all thy love. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. To the people who dropped lil messages on my friendster and facebook, and for the load of smses and calls. Hugs and kisses. =)

This year.
I'd like to grow both emotionally and internally. I want my age to stay this way, and to only become more of an adult mentally. I don't want to gain any more years. Enough is enough T_T I want to live life my own way the most, without causing trouble to the people around me. Imma work on that.

And.
I hope i can still be as happy as i am now. and happier.
I hope i can still see the good from the bad.
I hope no matter where my paths might lead, i can still appreciate life’s every little joy.

Here i come, hittin' the big 2-0.

안녕 =D.

2009-02-10T23:58:00.007+08:00

I haven't posted in a while. Sorry.

I've been (whispers) busy (watching drama), and when I haven't been busy I've been resting and thinking about how busy I am. That adds up to a couple of weeks of no blog posts.

Once you go a while without writing anything, you get the feeling like the next one needs to be something special. The longer you go the more special it has to be. So I waited and waited. And waited. Until, finally, there seems to be nothing worth writing about. T.T

A proper post next time =).

1-2-3-4-5

2009-02-09T00:39:00.021+08:00

the friends.

me.

the moon. the building.

the wantan.

the boyfriend.

i think not many people know this, but it’ll get out eventually.
the idea of me having a boyfriend is shocking enough.
try not to scream out loud. heheh.
omo he has his own website weihhh how cool is that?

hence the lack of updates.
and also because i'm uninspired. not lazy.

2009.

2009-01-05T11:50:00.004+08:00

follow the rainbow by sophiedee

"and i want to believe that i've made the right choices,
i'm still on the right path,
and there's still time to fix some mistakes i've made...
i guess i want hope."

-one tree hill

heyheyhey=).

i've been staying away because:
(1) i had to study (and still studying) for finals
(2) i just kinda liked not blogging

12am of 2009 was spent staring outside my window,
fireworks popping and banging all around.
red and greens and sparkly golds.
and then i went back to hug my notes.
bloody hell.

i know this is late but

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!

isn't it hard to believe that 2009 is now upon us?

truth.

2008-12-22T01:37:00.022+08:00

dear santa,
i've been a good girl.
for christmas i deserve a micky yoochun.

santa thinks.

so true.
you SO deserve him.

and so micky writes me a letter.

Dear q jin,
oh my heart is bursting forth with love
other men have seen angels,
but i have seen thee,
and thou art enough.

[this geli quote is from someone called g. moore]

[side effects after reading this may include you kicking me]

[but you wouldn't, right?]

[i mean, you love me]

i think i've just fallen head over heels in love,
with you.

attached is my picture.
you can stare at it as long as you wish.
and drool.
i don't mind.
really.

kindly respond within 24 hours of receiving this letter, failing which, i shall be considering someone else to spend my christmas with.

Mr. someone,
micky

********

yesh people i've fully recovered!!
thank you for your concern=).

this will be my last post of the year.
woop!
the year has gone by oh so very quickly.
like a shooting star.

2009 is going to be an exciting year.
i’m hitting the big 2-0,
i’ll meet new people.
i’ll be forced to grow up.
i want to stay carefree.
it's a privilege i'm fortunate enough to have.

am i ready to move on for a new year?
no, not really.
i wish i could just ask someone,
am i going to be ok?
and pray that person will say
yes, yes you’ll be ok.

yes i'm going to be fine. =)

merry christmas and happy new year!!
shove your face with food, stay safe and have lots of fun!!! =D

lotsa love,
x Q Jin <3

the rant doesn't end there.

2008-12-19T23:29:00.004+08:00

coz i don't know what did i write for my exam.

T___________T

and i'm still sick.

hot n' cold n' very grumpy.

2008-12-17T21:55:00.046+08:00

i tried to sleep but i couldn't.
i can't sleep.
because i can’t breath.
and no this is not lyrics to a song.

My nose is runny and blocked on one side. I look and feel pathetic and I can’t sleep which makes things worse. Because I need some rest. Because I need to study for my mid-term. Oh and I sneeze like every second which makes it impossible to sleep. My only companion now is my box of tissues. I'm now blowing my nose and surrounding myself with used tissues. I'm showing early symptoms of getting a bad flu. Which means I may get fevers, sore throat and runny nose. So if you happen to see me with 一把鼻涕，一把眼泪, don't worry, I'm just sick.

Ugly and Pathetic.

I'm trying not to rant here you know.

*trying very hard*

*vomitting blood but still trying*

Fine I did not enjoy this week.
(yala i know don't tell me it's only wednesday)

i almost lost my phone i almost lost my atm card i almost failed my paper i'm busy with assignments i haven't study for my midterm i can't go to kl this weekend because of this stupid business event i had sweets which tasted like toilet/detergen/mouth wash i'm feeling sick.

There you go=D.

But I had fun today=).
Despite the fact that I wasn't feeling well.
Thank you for the wonderful time.

Lalala Christmas

2008-12-14T12:12:00.022+08:00

That way the impact will be better.
10 hours of walking,
christmas songs on repeat.
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This is going to be short and erm... well just short.

because I have pictures to do the talking=).
see this is why Picasa is so cool.

Shopping during the holidays is so frustrating.
Everywhere's so crowded. Hate the squeezing.
Makes me feel so auntie. T_T

So anyway. yesterday.
TaitaiJojoPink and me.
new mp3 player,
new nail polish,
new wallet,
and a not-so-new 99 cents christmas hat,
for me =D.

We watched The Day The Earth Stood Still.
merely wanted to rest our sore feet,
and avoid the buzzy crowd.

Alien visitor.
Keanu Reeves speaks better mandarin than that chinese ah pek.

"if the earth dies, you die"
"if you die, the earth survives"
"so i think you better die to save the earth"

that's all I can recall from the movie.

okla i added the last line myself.

Yesterday was silly,
but heaps of fun.

[whoa i'm getting better and better in making conclusion ho =P]

teeth sinking into hearts.

2008-12-08T22:37:00.006+08:00

"And by the way,

everything in life is worth writing about,

if you have the outgoing guts to do it,

and the imagination to improvise."

— Sylvia Plath

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i hate watching horror movie.

because i didn't watch anything at all.

i was covering my eyes with a cushion throughout the whole movie,

and kept going "then, what happened?"

the movie wasn't very scary, I THINK.

it's the sound effects, roar.

i find horror movies such a waste of time.

like pay money just to scare yourself

and shorten your lifespan by a few hours.

=X.

my hands and legs are freezing.

i think i'm sleepy.

Lace up your shoes.

2008-12-06T00:24:00.014+08:00

I'm back in Segamat!
8 hours of yumcha session and I'm still smiling=).

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"eh, don't be so sampat can anot?!"
"siao char bo!"
"very funny meh?"
"stop laughing!"
"why you still laughing?!"

I've got a lot of that today.

There was once a time when we thought ‘friends forever’ was true.

Then came that time when we thought it was ridiculous. Nothing lasts forever.

I still don’t think it’s true. But 3 years after secondary school, we’re still hanging out together like we used to. The best part is, we don’t need an extravagant trip to bond or have fun.

*ring ring*
"eh come out eh!"
"wha.... now?"
"ah buh then?"
"tsk.. i just woke up eh"
"i don't care you die die also must come out"

Dear Greenapple and Ling,

I realise that all of have moved on from our primary and secondary school days. (yes we've known each other for that long) I remember how I dreaded the thought of ‘moving on’ but no one can stop changes right? No matter how we try to resist it, no matter how we fight back, change will continually happen in our life.

I’ve changed, I know I have. I don’t know in what way or how much, for better or worse. Fact is I’m different somehow from the girl you knew a year ago, from that girl you used to see almost everyday.

When I started uni, I was terrified. Afraid about making friends, afraid to go to a new place and most of all afraid that one day, hanging out with you guys would turn into a burden. I was afraid that I would find my new friends cooler and better. Now all of a sudden, I am hanging out with a group of friends other than you guys. I was afraid I would have second thoughts about our friendship. I know that sounds evil, but it's true. I know and you know that this world works in horrifying ways.

I’m glad that everything is working out good, maybe even better. =D All my fears seem stupid now. We have bonded oven closer. Reunion with old friends is always a funny thing. We would meet back at the same nostalgic place, sit in the same old spot, and start cracking the same jokes thus releasing the same annoying laughter. We all still seem like the same idiots who can talk endlessly. My tummy still aches from attempting not to laugh out loud. And I'm happy for that biji of apple cause she seems happy but don't ask me what is it about cause it's not my secret to tell=).

remember the teachers who would want to punish us must use 1 metre yellow rulers to hit us on our palms?

remember that a bowl of mihun soup costed 50 cents at the school canteen?

remember those kind of 'bookgames' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play?

remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeth check?

remember that "Program Minum Susu"? ...... or milo I cannot remember.

remember the ghost stories that you told me just to get me to talk?

remember how frustrated you were when you asked me 5 questions and I only answered 1?

The kind of friends I have.
Makes my day.

So all we can do is make sure that those smiles and laughter do not fade into a mere memory of you and me. Let it be something we experience in the present for as long as possible.

Love,

me.

(Another) quick one and a lil' bit more.

2008-12-02T21:10:00.019+08:00

i'm not sick, just feeling unwell.
i'm not vomiting, just vomiting blood.
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I am so nervous about these 2 weeks. I will be so busy, with assignments and exams around the corner. I don’t know how am I gonna pull through. =(

And I know I shouldn’t be blogging BUT I am very sure I will feel better after letting it all out so shut up don’t tell me to stop wasting my time blogging cause it is not.
[Gosh I am so nervous I typed the whole sentence out without punctuations]

So hear me rant.

There are times when I feel down. It's unexplainable. Well if you want me to explain this feeling I have... It is a feeling of emptiness. There isn’t a reason to be upset, but there isn’t a reason to be happy either. Like there's nothing there. I feel disorientated.

"i don't believe in needing a reason to be happy=)”

I don’t need a reason too, but of course a ship of chocolates is a very good reason to be happy=D. Ok the ranting ends here.
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Did you see the moon yesterday?
Sms has been circulating around,
Zi Wei has been telling me to look upon the sky yesterday night.
Something special from the moon.
She smiled.

obviously i googled this one.
i was so excited i forgot to take picture.

So cute right?
they say it happens every 100 years.
or 1000 years.
Guess it's a gift from the moon to the world,
especially those victims in Mumbai and Thailand.
Heavy toll on human life.
Painfully saddened, appalled and outraged
by this senseless, mindless, heartless
brutal act of violence.
And you question why this happened,
and is still happening.
I'll ask why.
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I didn't know I TALK IN MY SLEEP. And yesterday night was not the first time. From what I'm told by my roomie, who almost got a heart attack last night, I rarely say anything of consequence, but I speak as if I were awake and having a normal conversation. I don't shout, I don't sing, and I don't respond to people who try to talk back to me. But I was talking yesterday, LOUDLY, more like mumbling cause she couldn't catch what I said. So she decided to tell me. The truth. That I'm a sleep talker.

CONFIRMED.

What reallllly creeped her out though, was when she turned to look at me at one point,

I WAS SMILING AT HER.

WHEN I WAS ASLEEP.

"LIKE THE JOKER GUY," Quote her.

WARAO DAMN SCARY CAN???!!!!!!!

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I'm sleepy, but I'm refusing myself of sleep.
I need coffee.
I had my first one last sem during finals. (yea you heard it right)
It was horrible,
because I am hopelessly incapable of mixing anything right
(coffee powder with milk or milo powder with milk )
Haih, what to do. It was either that,
or sleep and fail the paper.
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erm.
ok.
bye.

A quick one.

2008-11-30T15:41:00.005+08:00

I am sitting here in front of my laptop at this very moment staring at the screen and scratching my hand because some freaking annoying mosquito bit it (why is it on the 9th floor?) wondering what to do when I am supposed to be studying for my upcoming mid-term which starts, by the way, on the 4th December, unfortunately.

Fuyoh, one sooper dooper long sentence. geng or not?

Yerrr, it’s pretty obvious I damn wuliao now. I’m supposed to be studying. I’m suppose to be a nerd. I am a nerd, so what am I doing? I must study!

Just thought it might interest you to know I am not lazing off.

Not lazing off.

And acting like my IP notes are transparent is not lazing off.

A night out with a month (May) and a vampire (Edward).

2008-11-27T23:58:00.020+08:00

Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart

So I've watched it.
I've been excited about it for a while.
I wanted to wait but I couldn't.
There's always an exception with cute and good looking vampires yo=D.

I understand that you cannot come into a movie made from a really good book with a closed mind and too high of expectations. I didn't mind that it wasn't amazing; and it turned out not bad. I can offically say I've been dazzled=).

I liked that the film was a dark and edgy. RobPatz was dazzling!! Of course he is. The homeless look only looks good on him. He played Edward out so much. I'm not sure what it is, but this guy keeps making me LOL. I actually like Bella more in the film than in the book..she comes off as strong and humble where in the book I found her to be a bit whiny.

And for me the Bella/Edward thing was too fast. It was so weird since they hardly knew each other. The only thing they actually talked about is being a vampire. How odd is that?! AND THE KISSING SCENE WAS CENSORED!! urgh.

There was not enough of the Cullens. Jasper only had, what, one line? It was not even mentioned that he could manipulate emotions. They skipped over important and key parts but elaborated on the wrong things. And don't even get me started with Jacob and that hair! Gawd.

Overall, the movie was fun to watch. Seriously. It was more like a chick lit but loved it anyway. And also because it’s such a fairytale. I love love fairytales.=))

So go watch. In the cinema.

I would have loved it more if there weren't girls screaming the entire time, like everytime rob's face was on screen. It was obnoxious ok. I mean, he is hot but... oh wait, that was me and May.

X

2008-11-26T22:32:00.014+08:00

First of all,
have all of you actually *gasp* abandoned me?!

ok lah, it’s only been one week since I blogged k.
no reason to ditch me so fast!

It’s official.
I need a new and louder alarm clock or a new pair of ears. Because I did not hear my alarm clock. Sleeping too much is not good for your body and mind at all. I slept for 12 hours today and I look dead now. I feel tired despite of all that sleep and yoga and I can’t concentrate when I study.

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I'll edit if I can think of a title.

I’m absolutely out of ideas about what to write.
Unless you wanna read about how I punched holes into papers.
Or how I painted my toenails red.
Or how I locked myself out of my room.

And second of all…
Erm, actually there is no second of all.

THE END.

*This is a random entry. Written because the blogger is amazingly bored (note: bored, not boring). Maybe she’ll get a sudden light-bulb-turns-on idea about what to write. Or maybe she'll find something interesting in her drafts. Then she'll blog. Thankyouverymuch.*

=)).

2008-11-20T20:53:00.004+08:00

you never know how things are going to turn out.
you almost know,
but you can never be quite sure.

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okla i've realized that i hardly talk about anything substantial anymore.
so i'll talk about something serious now k?

have you ever came across with the whatever and anything people?
or maybe you're one of those.

1. so where do you wanna eat?

2. anything lah.

1. eat at mamak want?

2. whatever lah... buttt…. mamak very hot leh.

1. so eat at mcd can?

2. actually ah anything also can la. but mcd ah.. boring lah.

1. haaah like that ah… we go eat sushi lor.

2. i said anything dy mah. up to you lor. but expensive rigghttt sushi.

1. $#@*!

2. don’t lah angry. whatever also can lah. i very cincai one.

just when you've settled down,

1. so what do you wanna eat?

2. i dunno leh. you decide for me lah.

1. you say one ah... how bout drinks?

2. aiyo.. i said anything lo.. why you so fan one!

look who's the irritating one now.
damn frustrating right.
i know.

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sometimes you should just use a little time to wonder
like why am i like this?
why is there no egg in the eggplant?
and also,
why is the person you secretly like called a crush?
maybe you hoped for a happy ending,
and the hope got crushed?
and, since i'm the one asking question,
what is the longest chair/kerusi/the thing you sit on?
ahaxx =D

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today was not bad a day.
although extremely sleepy my eyes were.
i'm hooked on twilight saga all over again.=)))
the movie is coming out in malaysia!
i pray it will not disappoint.
nah this is a HUGE poster of the movie.

p/s the author is going back to segamat too-mooo-rrowwww! =D

to be really honest, i honestly tell you

2008-11-18T23:46:00.006+08:00

you've changed.
and maybe i have too.

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i think.
i am emotionally unavailable.
i am emotionally inadequate.
and i'm quite fine with it.
i’m not even gonna start complaining about it here.
i want to go into hibernation soon.
yes, it'll be good.

somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me,
i ain't the sharpest tool in the shed.
she was looking kinda dumb with her finger and her thumb,
in the shape of an 'L' on her forehead.

well the years start coming and they don't stop coming,
back to the rule and i hit the ground running.
didn't make sense not to live for fun,
your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb.

so much to do so much to see,
so what's wrong with taking the back street?
you'll never know if you don't go,
you'll never shine if you don't glow

-smash mouth's allstar-

remember this one?
the days when ayer wasn't a word.

oh well,
i shall go wash my hair and talk to hammy.
i have missed my reads.
byeimissyoutakecare.
goodnight to you.
sleep for me i wish upon the star so bright.

i woke myself from sleep, a full recovery.

2008-11-16T09:43:00.010+08:00

right now i am cleaning my table.

clearing the clutter on my desk so that i can study properly.

this is what i do,

everytime before i start my vigorous preparation for my study.

it is also a way to procrastinate.

but at least i am getting something done ok.

so today.

a new day full of different feelings.

different emotion.

something strange.

good strange or bad strange i am not too sure of.

perhaps in the middle strange.

please. anyway.

this is sunday.

smiles.=)

i think no matter how many friends that you make,

the real happiness is talking to one single person,

feeling relax,

the world of randomness,

laughing in sync,

and it is comforting.

yes we love to do the most random stuff.

our randomness never ceased to amaze me.

all the bits and pieces.

so thank you,

for that five hours that we've spent together.=)))

and of course i love my wantan.

he can make me smile and light.

he won't give me big hugs.

but he will give me teeny tiny furry snuggles.

which right now i can almost indefinitely accept.=D

can't continue dy.

back to clearing clutter.

everyday i'm a different type of mental.

2008-11-13T23:14:00.017+08:00

Suju-T (Sungmin x Moeyan) - 明日のために、

have faith, me.
take deep breaths.
inhale.
exhale.
inhale.
exhale.
and start believing yourself.
you cannot imagine how many other people have faith in you.
so, shouldn't you start believing in yourself too?

*

terrible head pains,
and icy icy toes.
my head is having a headache of its own.
and that headache is giving me a major bad headache.
would be pretty great if i could massage the brain.
give it a good squeeze.

*

confession.
i have something to confess.
i am clumsy.
no actually the right way to put it is,
i am c.l.u.m.s.y.
only some people realised this though.
probably, you guys did
but were kind enough not to point it out,
so that i don't look clumsy.
huhu how kind of all of you.
thankyouverymuch.

*

today i amused myself.
i keep knocking into things.
i got my index finger's joint hit against something a few minutes ago,
and now it like a little swollen.
then while going out of the toilet,
my arm knocked against the basin, etc, etc, etc.

*

the sky is gloomy.
i was out,
eating ikan bakar,
it started to thunder and i saw lightning flashing.
dampened my mood, seriously.
i was monstrously tired and worn out today.
i will now get into my pyjamas.
boil the kettle for a hot water bottle.
make a cup of hot milo.
kiss you goodnight.
and fall asleep.

me. universe. you.

2008-11-11T23:02:00.030+08:00

i finally watched my long-awaited
High School Musical - Senior Year.
i don't care if anyone disagree with me.
it's thumbs-up and all toes-up good for me.
mesmerized by that pair of dazzling blue eyes,
sweet duets and pair dancing.
another tale, that don't come true.
i want to dream and live in a musical,
and not wake up.

oh i saw this trailer in the cinema,

and i choked on my nuggets when i saw this part.
sooooooo cute the hamster ♥
i have to watch this movie =))))

i am.

2008-11-09T12:43:00.012+08:00

the tiny bit of rest should be able to give me enough push,
for a new semester.
more work,
more work.

i came across this a while ago.
it's an interactive photo installation.
they took pictures of strangers,
who filled in the blank to describe themselves.
it's pretty amazing.

more pictures here.=)

ok.
time to bathe my hamster
and make him run a little cos he's growing fatter and fatter.
i shall take pictures of him later.
have i told you that i've decided to name him wantan ham?=D

-"never refuse an invitation,
never resist the unfamiliar,
never fail to be polite,
and never outstay the welcome.
just keep your mind open,
and suck in the experience.
and if it hurts,
you know what?
it's probably worth it.-"

hello malacca. =)

a twilighter?

2008-11-07T21:26:00.007+08:00

vampire. werewolf. suspense. romance.

human falls madly in love with a vampire,
vampire wants to drink her blood,
but falls in love with her as well.
yum.

vampire is ♥. =)
i read the series at a feverish pace, because i wanted to find out what happened. i think reading it non-stop works greatly against my interest for the novels. by the middle of the 2nd book, i was sick of the obsessive ramblings of the bella girl. so i'm taking a break before continue reading the 3rd.

what i dislike about this series so far is the blatant promotion of the concept of "if i won't have you, i'll kill myself." yes, it's sweet to hear that they cannot live without each other. but to advocate committing suicide for love is one thing i cannot accept.

and, the never-ending of edward-swooning. i mean, seriously. how many times can we read about how edward literally makes bella swoon? i thought the too detailed descriptions of edward's beauty would end at the first book, but I was very, very wrong. sometimes i would irritably skip through those descriptions.

that said,
i spent the whole night reading the 2nd book in the series.=P
i confess to being hooked as long as you throw me a few vampires and maybe a werewolf or two. i keep turning the pages bacause i just couldn't put it down. it was like an unhealthy addiction for me. it reminds me of soaps, although it's bad, you watch it.

just for the record,
i think the best character is jacob black.
and alice cullen is becoming a favourite too.=D

非常非常。

2008-11-06T23:18:00.011+08:00

曾经看过翅膀上长着一对大大眼睛的蝴蝶
他们说那是一种保护作用
其实不是真的眼睛
是要让想猎食他的动物恐惧害怕
达到威吓的功用。

伪眼。
其实每个人都是希望给人一个形象
只是当有人识破你的武裝
清楚窥见面具后面的你时
当下的你不知是如何的惊慌无助
你不否定还沾沾自喜
坦然的笑说我就是酱
转个头觉得自己很可悲
但是换个角度思考
生存在更像丛林的世界里
你还是需要它
來慰藉你那似有若无的安全感。

变了变了。
但真的只有一点。

我想记得=).
ok 就酱。
ah ah
next time ok
about the books.

dum dee dum.

2008-11-05T23:25:00.010+08:00

there there.
so i went out.
bought some clothes,
a pair of shoes,
cut my hair.
for a change i thought.
i dyed my hair reddish brown,
and it came out black.

so hello new hair.
hello happy me.
being happy is a funny thing,
at least for me.
sometimes when i'm too happy,
i tend to worry about having to be unhappy later.
so, i become less extremely happy,
and just be normal happy.
that way i wouldn't worry so much about unhappiness.

yes,
i'm weird like that.

aren't we all the little social butterflies?
though after careful consideration,
it's safe to say that i should be extracted from that equation.
i've been hanging out with my parents.
but i know i'm gonna miss them soon.

i think and think and think.
what's for me to place my future on.
what is there for me.
am i really certain this is for me.
i come to a point that i need to reevaluate on my point of view.
how i go about it.
how to enjoy it.
i've found a secret motivation.
i'll story when it works ok=)

i wonder what has law taught me.
the critique,
the justice,
the argument?
holiday came and gone like it never set foot on it at all,
2nd sem of 2nd year is coming in an unbelieveable mode.
why do time flows away like this.
can it just pause for a moment to at least finish what i'm doing.
i am so not sure whether the efforts i put in,
equal to the marks that were shown.
but guess what,
life has to go on. =)

oh i'm so happy that obama won!
ok thanks bye.
i'll blog about the books i've read in the next post k=D.

life's like that.

2008-10-30T14:37:00.016+08:00

if looks could kill,

and

then i'm dead now.
in peace. =)

school.
is starting in 10 days.
gonna set up a new column -
new inspiration/new goals.
i think i'm someone that needs new goals to be placed inside my head constantly.

someone,
somewhere,
find me a new inspiration or motivation.
movies, episodes, dreams,
are all wonderful but they don't last.
on another note,
i should get out of my house tomorrow.
i have a habit of staying at home too much.

seriously,
these two weeks have been nothing but,
emptiness i guess.
the time sleeping has been comforting.
don't be lazy, me.

yesterday was spent rushing through season1 of lipstick jungle.
worthy watching,
for that eye candy kirk,
the hunk you saw up there. =))))

and here i am,
on a thursday afternoon all alone in the house,
behaving like an old single lady,
deciding what to do.
continue my tv,
out for a run ,
eat my heart out,
or just listening to sad sappy songs.

i think i shall eat,
run,
shower,
and start the night with my heroes season3.
buhbai. =D

i'm left handed.

2008-10-23T15:58:00.004+08:00

late at night,
it feels almost lonely when you're the only light in the house.
quiet, serene, but distant.
ladidaaa.

first thing first.
happy belated birthday to mommy and yew!
i got mommy one of those osim thingy,
with papa's money.
oh i've bought something for yew too,
call me ar.
i really miss the girlfriend.
we keep saying that we've to meet up sometime,
but we never get to doing so.
lol,
let's just get comfortable with the grand idea of meeting up then.

i'm decaying.
watch me rot.
smell my decomposing flesh.
being bored alone is super hilarious.
because now,
i'm giving random people on friendster testimonials.
i'm even bored of sleeping.
save me.

watched some hokkien drama with mommy.
bonding session.
heheh.
a long running soap,
stretching to hundreds of episodes.
too lenghty for me.
it stretches to the third or fourth generation now.
basically it's conversation,
conversation and more conversation.
but it does have some drama.=)
and they say one of those signs of getting old is this:
you start loving hokkien dramas.
O_o

have been watching tv so much these days,
couch potato is now a far understatement.
i have morphed into a tv series junkie.
it's like you tell yourself,
"okay this is the last episode,
after this you better get off the couch!"
and then!
this last episode always end in a cliffhanger!
then you say,
"i only want to know what happens next!"
and then you sit there for another few hours,
until you take your meal then feel so sleepy after that and go to bed.

i am told that i lose interest easily.
i don't need to be told.
i already know.
i think it's my indecisive nature.

ok la.
i guess all my thoughts have gone out the window.
oh i want to watch hsm3!

toodles.

and so.

2008-10-18T01:22:00.006+08:00

meet my new hamster.

i know.
=).

mian mian is dead.

2008-10-17T00:54:00.007+08:00

i never want to have another hamster again.
they keep dying in my care.

my housemate knocked on my door,
and told me that she thought the hamster was dead.
i shoke the cage gently.
i shoke the cage a little harder.
i really shoke the cage.
he moved.

he was not doing well for the past few days.
he was breathing very shallowly and infrequently.
and he did not seem responsive.
when i picked him up,
he opened his eyes and squirmed a little.
he didn't kick like he always would,
he just sat in my hands,
and waited for me to put him back into the cage.

i held him and stroked him and tried to keep him awake.
i blew some air at him regularly.
me and my housemates spent the whole night trying to save him,
his final breath did not seem any different.
he just inhaled and never exhaled.

rest in peace mian mian.
love always.

within and beyond;

2008-10-16T18:40:00.006+08:00

ohohoh

i have reached the point where i'm tired.
absolutely drained.
this is bad.
because i may have bitten off more than i can chew.

last paper tomorrow =DDDD
and it still seems as though i'm not kan cheong.
because i'm still typing away.
and i'm serious when i say that i'm not even speed typing.

two different ways to say the same thing,
two different persons to say the same thing,
it's just a couple of words strung together.
and it saddens me.

riding on a merry-go-round.

2008-10-15T23:10:00.010+08:00

hello hello hello.

so you know how when you have absolutely nothing to do,
you look for things to do?
well,
i've loads of things to do,
yet i still look for things to do.
because i choose not to do that i have to do?

it’s called de-stressing,
not procrastinating.
really.

is it bad that i've been feeling utterly lazy?
not lazy like the normal lazy.
that is a constant for me.
as in i'm lazy to drag myself to study.
and i'm thinking if i can just do a disappearing act of sorts.
but that would be very irresponsible of me.
damn.
that means i won't be doing the disappearing act after all.
it stinks when i've a conscience. T.T

brain is mush.
no want think.
blegh.

it is not procrastination.
honest.

#edit#
my poor neck.
fell asleep on the table last night,
but it feels like the table fell asleep on me.

sunny day =).

2008-10-14T11:39:00.013+08:00

fujiki kazue - sunny day

what spilled down
wasn’t a tear
but a praying voice.
what i looked up at
was the sun above the clouds.

it seems so exceptional
things just work out after all
it’s just another ordinary miracle today.

so i guess in a way i'm treating myself.
even when the storm hasn't passed at all.
so to speak.

重点是什么。

2008-10-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

the weather is super good.
i listen to the rain pitter patter.
then the lightning came,
followed by thunders.
i want to sleep.
thinking whether i can fall asleep tonight,
in order to read more tomorrow
is also making me very stressful.

i'm having a headache,
sigh.
i think there's something wrong with my pillow,
lol.
my phone's mad again,
why is taylor swift singing so what by pink,
sigh.

i studied a bit,
and i cannot remember pratically everything.
i'm staring at the notes blankly.
i know it's the same drama,
i hate it.
i just need a place to drain out all this rubbish.

okla,
nite. (=
yup yup it's a terbalik smiley =)

i'm stalking.

2008-10-12T12:30:00.010+08:00

i tend to be very obsessive.
once i focus my attention on something,
it's all i think about.
i have taken a liking to,
psych.

i've been a psych fan
the first time i saw an episode that sara gave me,
a few days ago.
the premise: cop-wanna-be pretends to be psychic to solve crimes on a consulting basis. it's mystery meets comedy meets buddy show.
but i think it's more comedy than mystery =D
hilarity does ensue.
i get so psych!!
heheh.

and the lead character,
shawn spencer.
my oh my.
how arrogant this guy seemed.
how cool he must think himself to be.
how he must think he can get a way
with his charm and cutesy gestures and grins.
but he's really funny!! =DDD
i like.

this is a as a matter of fact kind of crush.
no,
it's not a dumb giggly school girl crush.
fine maybe it is.
can it be called a crush?
i'm not too sure.
never mind,
i fancy.

Gus:
You named your fake detective agency "Psych?"
Why not just call it "Hey, We're Fooling You and the Police Department. Hope We Don't Make a Mistake and Someone Dies Because of It?"

Shawn:
First of all, Gus, that name is entirely too long; it would never fit on the window! And secondly, the best way to convince people you're not lying to them is to tell them you are!

update #1

2008-10-11T00:29:00.011+08:00

because i couldn't think of a better title.
i have been totally out of it these days.
i forget things within a split second.
words just cruise into my left ear and out my right.
and i've been more than restless.
but i can't sleep.

i'm not feeling my best these few days.
i get the dizzy spells,
the tummy ache,
and the muscle-ache.
i need ample rest.

somehow i'm more rajin when there isn't an exam.
i don't know why.
it's like when exam is here you get that 'study later' syndrome.
then when you finally sit down you realised,
there's so damn much more to study.
then at that point,
you vowed to never procrastinate again.
but the process just keeps repeating itself.
it's just so amusing to watch.

caught up with an old friend just now.
things are same old same old.

to rinoa.
i'm not siao char bo.
and syongah is not a mangkali name.
was webcamming with her.
that girl ah,
talking to her made my blood go upstairs a bit. =P

someone is bringing me their album from korea.
thanks for the favor colin. =D
mwah mwah
have been waiting forever for this.
for me to talk about my reaction to this album,
you have to understand how i got into tvxq in the first place.
you don't wanna know?
i'm still going to tell.

it started with these variety shows 3 years ago.
ya shim man man and xman.
max was talking about watching porn,
uknow revealed he had man-boobs,
hero revealed unabashedly that he was hungry for popularity,
xiah with his dolphin voice was telling really bad jokes,
and micky was just greasy.

funny group.
but i've decided to like them. =)

okay la,
i tired already.

oh boy.

2008-10-10T18:50:00.004+08:00

this.

is how i feel now. =)

blog later.

sshhhhhhleeeep.

p.s i love bed.

2008-10-06T02:59:00.009+08:00

"hey, what else do you do nowadays besides studying, eating, sleeping and um, studying?"

i bet you're thinking i would answer - nothing.

WRONG.

i blog too.
heheh.

going through.
thinking through.
processiong through.

it's the songs that gets me through the day.
that,
and coffee with
a whole lot of sugar.
it's only then that i am not afraid to be up in the wee hours of the morning. it's only then i smile like there isn't a tomorrow.

i am having a headache.
i shall go rest my pretty head.
=).

to end everything,
exams are uber near.
please and thank you.

don't ask me what it's all about.
when i know,
i'll let you know.=)

nola this is not emo.

10 trillion kilometers away.

2008-10-05T12:03:00.008+08:00

hello=).

there has been alot of unrest around and within me lately.
i have decided to set aside after giving it much thought.
you only live once so why bother with all the complicated stuff.
=).

do a tag? yes?
yes.
ok.

kita akan tau jawapannya,

*smirk smirk*...............
*wink wink*...............
*smirk somemore*

selepas ini.

and the way he says "selepas ini" will sound like seh-leh-pus-e-nay.

anyways.

1. at what age do you wish to marry?
now right now.

2. if you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
i want you to do plastic surgery to look like tvxq. any one of them also can. can anot tarling?

3. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
of course not la! crazy meh?

micky wo ai ni!!

okay so maybe yes in another language so he won't understand.

5. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
requirements ar.
must look like micky lor what you expect.

4. if you win $1 million now, what would you do?
demolish mmu.
yes it probably won't be enough.
so thanks in advance for your kind donation.

5. which type of person do you hate the most?
i spread love only. PEACE.

6. what is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
nothing lar! i told you i think everybody is good!

now i'm going to die of guilt for lying...

7. if you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
may and siew mee cuz i love their their babbles and rantings.
yew cuz she has shine light in my life for 6 years. (her blog is private so it's not on the list)
rinoa cuz she's the real love of my life.

my math is still good ok.

siew mee and yew are super thin so they're considered as half of the human being.

8. do you believe you can survive without money?
no.

9. what are you afraid to lose the most?
my love for you.

10. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
marry micky.

ei who say you cannot marry a mushroom?

i don't know what else to say already.
my mind is trying to be damn serious like dark comedy but my heart is so happy like slap-stick comedy. at the end, lame comedy is produced and we all know that is the unfunniest kind of comedy.

okay bye.

i like. =)

Download

my sunshine.

2008-10-04T00:35:00.007+08:00

tvxq-ed once again.
the fastest and easiest way to make me happy
with all the routines i have.
watched their 1st comeback performance on sbs inkigayo.
it made me cry.
it was really really nice.
but hero was sick,
and his voice was a bit strained.
hope he gets well soon.
mirotic is erotic. :D

xiah at mbc radio station.
♥ su is sooo cute!
i want to put him in my pocket for safe-keeping.
only i can't coz he belongs to joceyn. =P

yup yup that's my mushroom micky.
purely love.

look what i've found.
the definition of fangirl:

noun.

known to rave,
squeal,
post until all hours of the night,
faint,
drool,
save excessive amouts of photos,
procrastinate,
and say "ohmygosh".
see also:

complete nutter.

the little things make me laugh.
see,
it's not hard to please me. :)
i need to chill.
it's not the end of the world.

she cried him a river.

2008-10-03T18:02:00.009+08:00

IU - Mia

because i just love her.
this song is exceptional, displaying a hybrid pop sound with dramatic strings in the background. she joins the ranks of numerous new artists who deluged this year's kpop stage, but she truly shines amongst them all. :) and she's only 15!
download

you know what to do when you're stressed?
read stressed backward.
yes.
but my yummy-looking mini cake does not taste yummy.
it's a sad, sad day when desserts fail you.

i have too many things to do in too little time.
no joke this time.
and it all rhymes.
what the hell.
i wish i had more hands.
and time.
and brains.
mmm, brains.

it's probably because its that time of the month again.
because today i woke up,
feeling like all sense of hope is lost.
i knew this dreary friday morning was bad news,
the moment i caught a glimpse of my reflection.
the dreadfulness that usually greeted me
was replaced with a newer improved freak,
complete with dark eye circles.
i'm going insane really.
please.
just let me get over this.

oh oh have you read perez hilton?
he is officially addicted to kpop!
the most annyoying thing is this bunch of people going on the comment section pleading for some exposure to their kpop artists ...
people have some dignity, will ya?
this comment really cracks me up tho,

gaytards:
"perez, i fear for your life if you do plug tvxq and dislike their songs, as their fanbase have no social life and would commit crimes against you. they will want you DEAD! and we cannot have our favourite blogger dead now can we?! "

i'm a die-hard tvxq's fan
but sometimes the cassiopeias do get a bit out of control. :P

speaking of kpop news,
i was shocked when i found out that another korean star committed suicide. this time choi jin shil.
why are there so many cases of artist dying this year?
i just can’t stop thinking how korean entertainers are so prone to tragedy lately,
accidents,
suicides,
their everywhere.

grabbed from heechul's cy

on a lighter note,
happy belated birthday to my brother,
who claims i terrorized him from the day he was born and am the direct cause of the nervous twitch in his left eye.
he's one year younger but one time bigger than me.
so it kinda evens out. :P
lotsa lotsa love!!

love,
gimme strength.

me being plain me.

2008-09-24T02:12:00.018+08:00

seriously plain one like white paper.

sigh.
i do realize the fact that I still own a blog.
but my life is so dull i wanna spare you the misery.

-mcd's study plan with the housemates is cancelled so i'm blogging-

so final is 14 days away, thanks to my dear calendar who counts down everyday in front of me. i shouldn't be scared because i'm already so used to it right? but yucks the world is cruel and i'm afraid of it again because what if i can't make it? i'll be like the biggest failure in the whole universe.

i've questioned my capabilities a lot lately especially since mid-term and i feel that my nightmares are coming alive to haunt me. i have all these positive affirmations plastered in my room, i really did believe in the infinite source of my capability. note- i did.

i'm constantly afraid.
afraid of whether i will succeed.
afraid of whether i am really good enough.
afraid of whether there are cockroaches in my room.

each time i feel afraid, i would hear the voice in my head telling me "DO NOT BE AFRAID" and i would continue to feel afraid. i would still do things that distract me from studying. i am a frigggin moth. i am. i get burned on one wing, and i get very angry and sit down at one corner and sulk while complaining. then i decide to flutter to candlelight again and burn my leg.

heheh i just loled at myself.
ok this is stupid.

i don't have class tomorrow =D
which means
-i can sleep as late i want to.
-i can wake up as late as i want to.
-i won't feel guilty if i'm slacking.
-i lied about not feeling guilty.

staying up while everyone sleeps,
the silence lets me think of things i don't think about.
things that i lock at the back of my mind.
maybe one day we'll live in space.
i just thought you should know.
we'll have honey stars for breakfast.
wouldn't you want to brave the black hole with me?
it'd just be us,
the stars and the universe.
no exam!

update at 0430-
it's starting to rain.
i like the rain.
if only it wasn't so heavy.
sleep,
i should go to bed,
i need to sleep,
human being sleep.
enough of the crazy rambling talk.

i'm talking to myself.
great.

i'm going MIA for a lil bit...

2008-09-17T00:24:00.017+08:00

because i love studying.
and i'm still suffering a nervous shock
from my mid-term exam's result.
i don't know what happened.
thus the frustration.
don't ask.
i'm kinda like happy-go-lucky but sometimes not very lucky.
i shall be working very, extemely hard for the finals.
haiiiiiyakkk!

law of torts - 7th october
criminal law - 9th october
islamic law - 10th october
computer law - 16th october
malaysian studies - 17th october

one day,
i told my brother that i don't wish people good luck because i have this mindset that if you wish people good luck you'll give your luck away. thus, i only get wished and wish people all the best. the following day, before my brother sat for exam, he happily spreaded my ideology to his friends and wished his friends all the best. his friends then told him wishing people all the best is worse because you're wishing people to be the best. giving your best away what not.
the end.

so,
all the good in finals =P
yes i'm that pantang.

secret is,
i didn't know how to operate my face book account thus abandoned it...
but now i do ok!
i'm no longer the ah-po who doesn't know how to use face book.
but i think it's too mafan so i'm still abandoning it....
geez what happened to the good ol' days of friendster?
yalar... i know it's not face book but facebook.
but who really cares lar whether it's mukabuku or muka buku.
wow muka buku sounds like some exotic getaway.
or perhaps it simply sounds like muruku.
hehehehe.

i think right,
i've been going through a phase.
it's the malas mood and shitty phase.
note to self-
i should get that annoying ringing alarm clock.

i have woken up.
and i plan to never sleep again.
for there is not a point in it.
that sweet slumber shall be my last mistake tonight.
that spell is broken.

bad things comes in threes.
the forth time is a charm.
because i know a new trick you don't. =)
and i'm still mourning over my mid-term.

you know,
i think it's funny to keep a diary online.
just click this, click that,
add a couple of weird sites you go to...
and voila!
another method to announce your life into the interwebs
for million of people to see.
i will be missing you guys
since i won't be updating my blog anytime soon.
but keep your sites updated coz i'm still reading them!! =D
muaaaaxxxx!

don't forget me ar.

-missing in action-

feel good inc.

2008-09-14T21:38:00.013+08:00

woke up early when i was back at home the other day,

and i heard this coming from the house next door.

remember when?

oooo i hated going back to school.

i cringed every time i would see a back to school ad on tv.

i still cringe even now.

oh why must they torture us.

but i must admit,

i loved buying new school supplies. =)

i do think my posts consist of

imaginary pointers.

for i rarely go into details.

for details,

i think they are baggage i don't need.

you know sometimes,

when you tell people things,

and they don't reply immediately,

it's just because they aren't really interested.

a bad habit i know.

i apologize for not caring much.

geez,

how fast time flies —

i can’t believe it’s been a full year since

the previous mooncake festival.

on this auspicious sept 14,

the koreans also celebrate chuseok (korean thanksgiving).

particularly,

stars dressing up to wish people a happy holiday.

in hanboks.

no,

this is not hanbok.

and this picture is not relevant.

but it's already been uploaded.

nothing much can be done.

what can i do what can i do?

sigh.

lol =p

it's kim rae-won for

L’Oreal Men’s Expert Hydra-Energetic Turbo Booster.

a ridiculously long product name to obscure the product’s function? check!

but he seems more like the traditional type of guy’s guy to me, not someone you’d think cared a whole lot about which name-brand moisturizer to use to maintain his silky smooth complexion.

it's not too late to wish you a

right? :D

heh heh,

i'm listening to jonas brothers.

joe jonas and his bushy eyebrows is cute shit la.

moar yummy!

2008-09-11T01:54:00.016+08:00

-after bucket loads of tears and 10000 hours of watching dramas-

eh joke lar.
how can i be emo and cry?
that previous post was like an april's fool joke.
shut up don't tell me it's september now.

so so so.
on a lighter note. :D
it's coming...

jjeng jjeng jjeng.....

tadaa!

their album.
september 24, 2008.

동. DONG

방. BANG

신. SHIN

기. KI

click to enlarge and prepare to die =P

it's my wallie now!

i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait.

although SM the company gave out nothing new in the teaser,
it still made me go ^-^ in anticipation and *fangirl's scream* for tvxq's korean comeback. it's like a countdown for me and i'm going giddy and aslfkjhasjkfh excitement rising! ♥

recent photo at kimpo airport.
must. resist. urge. to. molest... squish. chunnie.
*fail*
i want to ruffle his hair and hug him xD
he looks like a painter here for some reasons.

ok tata bye.
night.
going home tomorrow.
woohooo!!

this ain't personal.

2008-09-11T00:45:00.011+08:00

when i started this blog,
i've never meant for anything to be personal.

i never wanted to tell every bit and fragments of my life,
because i never felt fragments of my life could ever mean anything if they weren't whole. pictures are simply pictures. smiles simply poses for the camera.

when i'm with people,
i laugh out loud and immerse myself in all that laughter losing myself in it. i laugh and i talk and my mind is running a thousand miles an hour, i don't feel that's me but that's q jin. i talk and i talk and i talk,
but that's not me,
that's q jin.

but once i lost q jin,
it's me.

i wouldn't talk.
i wouldn't laugh.
and i just sit still and take it all in,
my family,
my friends,
those bonds,
those silent words,
it's all them and there's no q jin.

i rejoice when everything is still and dead.
but i ain't no sadist.

that's when i look down at my own feet,
tap it twice on the floor,
and realize that is when i'm most alive.
i simply am.

conscious.

you smell like a day in december.

2008-09-08T22:13:00.015+08:00

i'm feeling quite ____.
it's just,
i don't know how to pen down my thoughts.
usually,
i just need to pour whatever i have in mind,
verbal diarrhea,
everything comes out easy.
but not today.

i've things in my head.
it sounds damn good in my head.
but when it comes out of my mouth,
it sounds dumb.
i think i should stop talking.

i've been attempting to play this online game.
it's actually a very simple game.
but seeing as i've no hand coordination,
i fail miserably.
what i get out of this activity?
i work my throat by shrieking
and making unnecessary sounds.
i seem to lose at games.
that's why i don't even play.
but it seems i've been entered without my knowledge.
i guess i'd rather be out of it thanks.

i'm a little bored bored bored.
after this post,
i'll go watch my dramas.
been watching downloads like crazy.
i'd rather do this for life.
but yar, i must get back to reality.
i'm obssesed with this hong kong drama,
moonlight resonance.
i've been crying so hard watching it,
i think i'm going into a mental hospital soon.
am on episode 28 now,
omg kamei is freaking annoying,
dammit.
feel like slapping her.
ROAR ROAR.
me detest kamei like anything now.
love moonlight's theme song,
hahah.
it blends so well into the show. :))
the only thing i don't like is the stepmom’s hairstyle.
oh. my. god.
no matter how much i like the actress,
i cannot be blind to the fact that her hair looks horribly,
like a mushroom (think mario brothers).
yuck.
oh and all those bordering-on-incest relationships in the show.
O___O

alright let me tell you a lame joke.
don't cheat must read the whole story.

one day, this girl got a haircut so she was really satisfied and was ready to go show off to all her friends. so she went to her close friend, unfortunately her close friend said,

"aiya! why your hair square square like that not nice at all, look like a kite only."

obviously the girl was like sad so she went home and wanted to find comfort in her mom.

"mummy mummy! i got a haircut! and then my friend said not nice!"

her mother replied
"aiya! your friend is right la! your hair really not nice at all, really look like a kite only!"

so the girl was really sad and depressed and emo and just turned back and ran out of her house and then she flew away.

the end.
so yupyup.
lotsa love :D

"can i don't want to not do but still don't wanna have to not do then not undoing but not not wanting to not undoing the assignment?"

i don't know what i'm talking about.
if i was the lecturer i would just say i'll give you zero.
lolwth. =P

okay bye.

reality check.

2008-09-03T22:39:00.008+08:00

i have this restless bug in me.

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.
that is all there is to this blog.
no wait there's,
whine whine whine whine,
too.
then there's also,
rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rany rant,
as well.
but mostly it's,
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.

i want to scream,

SSCCCRRRRRRREEEEEEAAAAAAAMMMMM!!!

so,
i screamed.

okay bye.
i've decided to not bother about things anymore.
and that probably includes you.
and probably you too.

whoever you are.

wonder why the emoness of this post?
because i'm back in malacca.

okay bye.

let's go do something stupid.

2008-09-02T23:52:00.011+08:00

one two three
let's run free.

good things about holidays:

-no class.
-naps.
-doing nothing and watching the clouds go by.
-having an unofficial bubble-blowing contest with the kid living next door, who so obviously copied you and sadly thinks he can out bubble you.
-waiting around for something or nothing.

-spending time with your family.
-unplanned picnics and a good book to read.
-staring at the stars with a good friend, and a cookie.
-scratching mosquito bites.
-feeling like the day is endless.
-having a bit of hope.

one bad thing about holidays:
-the fact that it's going to end.

my latest addiction?
this song.

came across this when i was doing my malaysian studies assignment.
collaboration of big names. singers and non-singers. 120 people. nobody was paid. a patriotic song that promotes racial unity.

and now hitz.fm is pimping it to death.

download

the great escape.

2008-09-01T22:03:00.013+08:00

shoutout: i miss rinoa soooo ____. :((

if you haven't noticed by now, i have a cousin named tan mei yiing, also known as siao char bo by me, who is now studying acca at sunway (she is not smarter than me lah of course =P), who worships super junior, and i've been spending the last two days with her. click here for her blog, her blog is crazy, like her, so if you don't bother reading, it's not okay.

because i'm such a great, kind, generous, caring, nice, golden-hearted soul, so instead of thinking about micky or watching tv or reading books at this time, i decided to dedicate this post to tan mei yiing, the queen... king of evildom. she treats me with masculinity you see.

despite how harshly, brutally, and violently she exploits my fundamental human rights, i linked her up in my blog, nudged her on msn, and kepo with her on skype. but it's okay. i shall forgive her on the ground that she made milo for me at 2am last night. :P i cannot recall what we talked last night but it was something about her sungmin and my micky and we ended up hugging each other and promised that we must go to korea one day. together.

alright, enough about her. you must be feeling so honoured hor mei yiing. :DDD *hugs*
haiz.. all the childhood memories. :)
good times, good times.

would you rather have hundreds and thousands of pictures captured when you are kid?
or would you rather keep your childhood no more than a vague memory, a somewhat imagination?

when i was young if something scary were to enter my mind etc ghosts, scary movie, pork man (that's what we call our butcher, but actually he's very nice la) , i would think of mickey mouse. heh. but really, mickey mouse was my idol when I was a kid!! i wanted to grow up and BECOME mickey mouse. explain the obssesion over micky from tvxq despite his funny hairstyle. of course, this ambition is still better than my brother's wanting to be a snow man when he grows up.

SNOW MAN!
if i'm not mistaken, he said it's because snow mans always smile or something like that. *snorts*
you wanna know what would i do now when something bad were to enter into my mind? my mind will go into ninja mode and start picturing sword fights. :)

i seriously think that emoticons with this long and wide mouth are cute.

T_____________T
=_____________=
0_____________0

their cute wert. not meh?

i thought it was over.

2008-08-28T21:30:00.013+08:00

there are days where i'd just like to enter an empty room and not have anyone in it.
the definition of empty = no one.
but i know i'd get bored and would need human contact right after 3 minutes.

some days,
things just get to be too much.
and then when i want to go beserk,
when i usually hyperventilate,
i just keep quiet,
swallow the deep breathing and walk away.

i've had alot of nonsense to pass for a blog entry.
but it seems like everything has decided to go away.
so i've very bad time management.
maybe i should plan.
i've breakfast settled tomorrow. home home home!!
now if only i can settle what to wear tomorrow to meet my friends,
then i'm good to go.
oh and settle what to have for lunch as well.
oh and plan what to have for dinner.
then to plan what to do at home.
i don't think i can pretend to be busy much longer.
oh i know what to do already.
i think i should open my law books and study abit.
no i did that.
then i got sleepy.

i think i should stop letting myself get so sleepy.
i should stop thinking about redundant things.
it's taking over my whole thought process.
i think i will eat that bun i bought for supper.
no,
i'll still be hungry then no point,
i will waste more time.

okay bye.
waiting for papa to pick me up.
he's working late. again. :(
oh and i think i should stop suddenly telling people certain things.
because it's not really a need for them to know many many times.
it's more of me reassuring myself.

oh okay thanks bye.
take care people.

=D

never take someone for granted.
hold every person close to your heart.
because you might wake up one day
and realize that you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones.

yesterday.

2008-08-24T17:03:00.015+08:00

watched wall-e with qiqi and lynn - checked
went to 8tv summer concert with lc - checked
being pushed by people - checked
pushed and stepped on other's foot - checked
screamed and shrieked when jam xiao came on stage - checked
got annoyed by these 2 guys standing beside me - checked
bumped into my secondary school friend wei jie - checked
supper at subaidah with lc, ekson, sin ling, wan jun, bao ru, and 2 guys plus 1 girl whom i don't know their names - checked
too tired to blog about what happened yesterday - checked

helooooo world!! weeeeeeeeeeee!!
i'm over the whole it's-exam-so-freak-out phase. it happens. haha.
hence i'm in a super gooood mood.
ok. world, (which is really just a few person),
the wall-e.
it's absolute heaven.
moving, genuinely heartwarming and laugh-out-loud funny.
i mean how could you not love wall-e?
and the talk-no-nonsense eve is so cool!
oddly, the humans have a lot less personality than the robots in the movie. hmm...
message from the movie:
environmental issue, commercialism, and mass obesity.
must watch must watch!!

summer concert was a blast!
all of us enjoyed it very much,
even though it resulted in muscle pain. T.T
i got the super fans rock zone ticket,
which mean i was very near with the stage. woohooo!
and oh, oh, it was freaking raining at first.
and of all things to worry about, like "nooo what if i fall sick?" or "i'm gonna catch a cold. die.", i saw someone worried about his hair.
anyway, because of the rain, people started showing off their pretty umbrellas, and thus, obstructing my view. fortunately the umbrellas were kept not long after the show started, otherwise i would've been watching the umbrella parade for 4 long hours.

but too bad i couldn't take picture coz the camera is with my bro,

so waiting for my friend to send me the pictures.

quite a number of hot stars from taiwan made it to this concert:

Jam Xiao!!!
awesensational.
the main reason why i wanted to get the ticket!!
i decided i'm gonna be a permanent fan of jam xiao.

for awhile.
he's 21. cute. and talented.
i'm developing a crush on him,
undeniably falling for him. lalalalala
love his songs.
love, love, love, love, love it.

Show Luo.

you have no idea how many hundred thousand girls came for him.

a talented dancer. and singer.

m addicted to his latest drama hot shot. hot!!

and there's this guy stanley huang whom i find very sexy.

the guy who sang 音浪太强，不晃，会被撞倒地上 ... or something.

hahahahahahahhahah.

aaaah! Jolin Tsai! aaaaah!

honestly though,

i thought she couldn't make it.

heard some lousy rumors about how she had some weird skin disease for sleeping with her pet dog. what the hell.

but she was amazing.

it was a beautiful day yesterday. :D

i've realized something,

i estimated my maximum usage of lah,

- about 200 times a day.

the lovely thing about lah is,

it adds a lot of character to your sentence.

you don't really need a perfect sentece to express what you're feeling.

so does hor, meh, wan, etc.

i can't!

-i cannot wan laaah!

funny isn't it?

-very the funny hor?

you bought?!

-you got buy meh?!

hehehehehehehe.

heyyy

2008-08-21T23:39:00.043+08:00

hello world. :)
i know, i know, no excuse for me to be sitting here considering i should be pathetically doing assignments at my table like i should be for the next few days. this is like, potty-break or something. yes, i will bury my head soon.

my criminal law lecturer is sick.
so sick she can't wait to see all of us fail her subject.
so so sick she came out with bloody difficult questions that i couldn't answer.
so so so sick that she made me realize that i don't even need to study.
coz it would be damn hard anyway.
is it just me,
or does she brings this extremely unpleasant, sucky aura when she comes into class?

yes. i need to study.
yes. i can.
yes. i must.
yes. i will.
yes. this is utterly depressing.
i admit.
in addition to my *roll eyes* clumsiness,
i'm absent-minded.
which, doesn't help at all.
i tend to wander off every, say, 10 seconds?
like studying. i can speed read, with absolutely nothing going in.
and then i'd blow my fringe, fustrated, and reread.
the words seem familiar, then it amazes me.
and then the amazement "catch my breathe away",
then i'd have to reread again.
like in class. one minute, i'll be all ears and the next,
i'll be thinking about something totally irrelevant,
and then i'll fall into complete blurness,
and i'd somehow slowly slump in my chair, yawn, and....
especially during tort.
and i feel guilty not listening to her lecture.
she's not a bad lecturer really. she's just...
i prefer the previous lecturer.

i want to do a list.
tadaa!

the unpractical list of boys i want to date
1. the band boy - so he can sing and write songs for me
2. the concert scene boy- and he knows like all the local concert places and bands
3. the prankster - because he'll be fun
4. the well traveled guy- so he can give me souvenirs from all the cool places he has been, and invite me on his vacations
5. boy from another country- preferably korea, and you know why
6. the computer whiz- so he can fix mine whenever it is broken, free of charge

i realize this list is shallow,
but its my list and thats how its going to be. =P

or maybe i should try this:

dear santa:
help.
all the prince charming are either taken, or are frogs.
i don't believe in the existence of the ideal guy.
however, i would date a guy who can play guitar, cute, rich (optional), caring, sweet in a silly way and is able to make me laugh.
thank you.
love,
jin.

oh he replied!

dear jin:
the type of guy you are finding for is pretty extinct.
they are either taken, or are not interested.
and it's not christmas yet. geez.
and aren't you supposed to do your computer assignment?
why are you thinking about this rubbish?
irritated,
santa.

ouch.

whatever that used to be,
isn't anymore.
whoever you once were,
you're not anymore.
lost within yourself.
lost in a lie.
a road you choose.
a path you denied.
a person you let down.
a love you abandoned.
how did you get here ?
where do you go from here?
one day you'll know.
for now,
you just get by.

sunshine is a happy thing.
a good thing.
they say there can never be too much of a good thing.
i say... too much sunshine burns.

ok bye.

Wei To Go.

2008-08-17T22:16:00.028+08:00

silver is a nice colour, no?

so this is it.

we've lost.

to that smelly egg.

i didn't manage to watch the match,

but i guess just like the many malaysians,

i was rooting for chong wei to win this match,

and bring glory to our home country.

i thought chong wei had a better chance of winning the finals compared to lin dan as he seemed to be in a better shape overall.

i thought it would be a historic win of overcoming the toughest challenge of it all, a win that will make the nation most proud of,

maybe for years to come.

not to mention,

the thought of malaysia will again be having a medal in the olympics!!

and no, it's not a mere bronze, but a chance for the gold :D

you know, i was hoping that we could end our gold-less drought,

once and for all...

at least we are not coming back colour-less.

heheh.

this is what is expected for a world class player -

to live to his billing,

which is what chong wei has done so far,

coming into the finals as the second seed.

it wasn't easy to take the pressure mentally and overcome the chinese supporters in the final.

so no matter what,

he is already a national hero.

and.

he is bagging rm300,000.00 from the government for a silver.

that is a lot of money. :)

i super like this picture :D

warning.

2008-08-17T00:53:00.019+08:00

what on earth is______

then i saw this

"this rating was determined based on the presence of the following words in your blog:
dead (3x)
pissed (2x)
hurt (1x)"

oohhhh.

liddat also can?!!
fine.
let's see.

-i'm going to a beautiful. peaceful place where angles serve drinks.

-i'm ____ but i cannot type it out coz you will feel offended. and also because that word is under parental guidance. so you can fill in the blank yourself. you do know how i feel right now. right?

-my heart is bleeding. wait. blood. too violent for children. ok. how about this. i'm having a major depressive disorder and i can't find anything i can put my heart and soul into. soft enough eh?

i don't want my blog to look like that.
not in a million years.

wait a minute.
is that my micky?
is that his new hairstyle?
omo..
it's very...
EDGE-Y.
but actually he looks fine.
freakishly cute.
in a weird way.
don't worry you still have my love.
:tongue.

p.s. hwaiting chong wei!!
do us proud ♥
beat that chou ji dan!!

flip the script.

2008-08-16T02:22:00.009+08:00

and now something just for fun :)
it seems to me that it's a growing trend these days to give band a name that is hard to pronouce, and also have a secret message in it that only the band understands...
some of them are hilarious,
some are mind blowing,
and some are just dumb.
i mean,
i dunno about their music
but,
the sound of animals fighting?
natalie portman's shaved head??
and this undisputable winner.
up up down down left right left right b a start???
i found out later that it's a code for ninendo's contra to get 9 lives.
they use a cheat code as their band name?!!

sigh.
stuck smack in the middle of the intersection of
Nothing To Eat
and
Too Lazy To Cook.

procrastination.
at the start,
the word is always very appealing.
but,
nearing the dateline,
you're cursing and swearing.
honest.

i feel urgh.
very URGH.
bang-wall kind of URGH.