life's like that.

if looks could kill,
























and



then i'm dead now.
in peace. =)






school.
is starting in 10 days.
gonna set up a new column -
new inspiration/new goals.
i think i'm someone that needs new goals to be placed inside my head constantly.



someone,
somewhere,
find me a new inspiration or motivation.
movies, episodes, dreams,
are all wonderful but they don't last.
on another note,
i should get out of my house tomorrow.
i have a habit of staying at home too much.



seriously,
these two weeks have been nothing but,
emptiness i guess.
the time sleeping has been comforting.
don't be lazy, me.



yesterday was spent rushing through season1 of lipstick jungle.
worthy watching,
for that eye candy kirk,
the hunk you saw up there. =))))





and here i am,
on a thursday afternoon all alone in the house,
behaving like an old single lady,
deciding what to do.
continue my tv,
out for a run ,
eat my heart out,
or just listening to sad sappy songs.




i think i shall eat,
run,
shower,
and start the night with my heroes season3.
buhbai. =D

i'm left handed.

late at night,
it feels almost lonely when you're the only light in the house.
quiet, serene, but distant.
ladidaaa.




first thing first.
happy belated birthday to mommy and yew!
i got mommy one of those osim thingy,
with papa's money.
oh i've bought something for yew too,
call me ar.
i really miss the girlfriend.
we keep saying that we've to meet up sometime,
but we never get to doing so.
lol,
let's just get comfortable with the grand idea of meeting up then.




i'm decaying.
watch me rot.
smell my decomposing flesh.
being bored alone is super hilarious.
because now,
i'm giving random people on friendster testimonials.
i'm even bored of sleeping.
save me.




watched some hokkien drama with mommy.
bonding session.
heheh.
a long running soap,
stretching to hundreds of episodes.
too lenghty for me.
it stretches to the third or fourth generation now.
basically it's conversation,
conversation and more conversation.
but it does have some drama.=)
and they say one of those signs of getting old is this:
you start loving hokkien dramas.
O_o




have been watching tv so much these days,
couch potato is now a far understatement.
i have morphed into a tv series junkie.
it's like you tell yourself,
"okay this is the last episode,
after this you better get off the couch!"
and then!
this last episode always end in a cliffhanger!
then you say,
"i only want to know what happens next!"
and then you sit there for another few hours,
until you take your meal then feel so sleepy after that and go to bed.




i am told that i lose interest easily.
i don't need to be told.
i already know.
i think it's my indecisive nature.




ok la.
i guess all my thoughts have gone out the window.
oh i want to watch hsm3!


toodles.

and so.

meet my new hamster.



i know.
=).

mian mian is dead.

i never want to have another hamster again.
they keep dying in my care.





my housemate knocked on my door,
and told me that she thought the hamster was dead.
i shoke the cage gently.
i shoke the cage a little harder.
i really shoke the cage.
he moved.


he was not doing well for the past few days.
he was breathing very shallowly and infrequently.
and he did not seem responsive.
when i picked him up,
he opened his eyes and squirmed a little.
he didn't kick like he always would,
he just sat in my hands,
and waited for me to put him back into the cage.


i held him and stroked him and tried to keep him awake.
i blew some air at him regularly.
me and my housemates spent the whole night trying to save him,
his final breath did not seem any different.
he just inhaled and never exhaled.







rest in peace mian mian.
love always.

within and beyond;

ohohoh



i have reached the point where i'm tired.
absolutely drained.
this is bad.
because i may have bitten off more than i can chew.



last paper tomorrow =DDDD
and it still seems as though i'm not kan cheong.
because i'm still typing away.
and i'm serious when i say that i'm not even speed typing.











two different ways to say the same thing,
two different persons to say the same thing,
it's just a couple of words strung together.
and it saddens me.

riding on a merry-go-round.

hello hello hello.



so you know how when you have absolutely nothing to do,
you look for things to do?
well,
i've loads of things to do,
yet i still look for things to do.
because i choose not to do that i have to do?




it’s called de-stressing,
not procrastinating.
really.




is it bad that i've been feeling utterly lazy?
not lazy like the normal lazy.
that is a constant for me.
as in i'm lazy to drag myself to study.
and i'm thinking if i can just do a disappearing act of sorts.
but that would be very irresponsible of me.
damn.
that means i won't be doing the disappearing act after all.
it stinks when i've a conscience. T.T






brain is mush.
no want think.
blegh.






it is not procrastination.
honest.





#edit#
my poor neck.
fell asleep on the table last night,
but it feels like the table fell asleep on me.

sunny day =).

fujiki kazue - sunny day

what spilled down
wasn’t a tear
but a praying voice.
what i looked up at
was the sun above the clouds.



it seems so exceptional
things just work out after all
it’s just another ordinary miracle today.







so i guess in a way i'm treating myself.
even when the storm hasn't passed at all.
so to speak.