truth.

dear santa,
i've been a good girl.
for christmas i deserve a micky yoochun.












santa thinks.











so true.
you SO deserve him.

and so micky writes me a letter.

Dear q jin,
oh my heart is bursting forth with love
other men have seen angels,
but i have seen thee,
and thou art enough.

[this geli quote is from someone called g. moore]

[side effects after reading this may include you kicking me]

[but you wouldn't, right?]

[i mean, you love me]

i think i've just fallen head over heels in love,
with you.


attached is my picture.
you can stare at it as long as you wish.
and drool.
i don't mind.
really.


kindly respond within 24 hours of receiving this letter, failing which, i shall be considering someone else to spend my christmas with.



Mr. someone,
micky




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yesh people i've fully recovered!!
thank you for your concern=).








this will be my last post of the year.
woop!
the year has gone by oh so very quickly.
like a shooting star.





2009 is going to be an exciting year.
i’m hitting the big 2-0,
i’ll meet new people.
i’ll be forced to grow up.
i want to stay carefree.
it's a privilege i'm fortunate enough to have.




am i ready to move on for a new year?
no, not really.
i wish i could just ask someone,
am i going to be ok?
and pray that person will say
yes, yes you’ll be ok.






yes i'm going to be fine. =)











merry christmas and happy new year!!
shove your face with food, stay safe and have lots of fun!!! =D












lotsa love,
x Q Jin <3

the rant doesn't end there.

coz i don't know what did i write for my exam.




T___________T









and i'm still sick.

hot n' cold n' very grumpy.

i tried to sleep but i couldn't.
i can't sleep.
because i can’t breath.
and no this is not lyrics to a song.








My nose is runny and blocked on one side. I look and feel pathetic and I can’t sleep which makes things worse. Because I need some rest. Because I need to study for my mid-term. Oh and I sneeze like every second which makes it impossible to sleep. My only companion now is my box of tissues. I'm now blowing my nose and surrounding myself with used tissues. I'm showing early symptoms of getting a bad flu. Which means I may get fevers, sore throat and runny nose. So if you happen to see me with 一把鼻涕，一把眼泪, don't worry, I'm just sick.





Ugly and Pathetic.












I'm trying not to rant here you know.

















*trying very hard*





















*vomitting blood but still trying*




























Fine I did not enjoy this week.
(yala i know don't tell me it's only wednesday)





i almost lost my phone i almost lost my atm card i almost failed my paper i'm busy with assignments i haven't study for my midterm i can't go to kl this weekend because of this stupid business event i had sweets which tasted like toilet/detergen/mouth wash i'm feeling sick.





There you go=D.













But I had fun today=).
Despite the fact that I wasn't feeling well.
Thank you for the wonderful time.

Lalala Christmas

That way the impact will be better.
10 hours of walking,
christmas songs on repeat.
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This is going to be short and erm... well just short.




because I have pictures to do the talking=).
see this is why Picasa is so cool.






Shopping during the holidays is so frustrating.
Everywhere's so crowded. Hate the squeezing.
Makes me feel so auntie. T_T







So anyway. yesterday.
TaitaiJojoPink and me.
new mp3 player,
new nail polish,
new wallet,
and a not-so-new 99 cents christmas hat,
for me =D.






We watched The Day The Earth Stood Still.
merely wanted to rest our sore feet,
and avoid the buzzy crowd.




Alien visitor.
Keanu Reeves speaks better mandarin than that chinese ah pek.

"if the earth dies, you die"
"if you die, the earth survives"
"so i think you better die to save the earth"

that's all I can recall from the movie.



okla i added the last line myself.










Yesterday was silly,
but heaps of fun.


[whoa i'm getting better and better in making conclusion ho =P]

teeth sinking into hearts.

"And by the way,

everything in life is worth writing about,

if you have the outgoing guts to do it,

and the imagination to improvise."

— Sylvia Plath

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i hate watching horror movie.

because i didn't watch anything at all.

i was covering my eyes with a cushion throughout the whole movie,

and kept going "then, what happened?"

the movie wasn't very scary, I THINK.

it's the sound effects, roar.

i find horror movies such a waste of time.

like pay money just to scare yourself

and shorten your lifespan by a few hours.

=X.

my hands and legs are freezing.

i think i'm sleepy.

Lace up your shoes.

I'm back in Segamat!
8 hours of yumcha session and I'm still smiling=).


************









"eh, don't be so sampat can anot?!"
"siao char bo!"
"very funny meh?"
"stop laughing!"
"why you still laughing?!"





I've got a lot of that today.











There was once a time when we thought ‘friends forever’ was true.



Then came that time when we thought it was ridiculous. Nothing lasts forever.



I still don’t think it’s true. But 3 years after secondary school, we’re still hanging out together like we used to. The best part is, we don’t need an extravagant trip to bond or have fun.





*ring ring*
"eh come out eh!"
"wha.... now?"
"ah buh then?"
"tsk.. i just woke up eh"
"i don't care you die die also must come out"











Dear Greenapple and Ling,



I realise that all of have moved on from our primary and secondary school days. (yes we've known each other for that long) I remember how I dreaded the thought of ‘moving on’ but no one can stop changes right? No matter how we try to resist it, no matter how we fight back, change will continually happen in our life.



I’ve changed, I know I have. I don’t know in what way or how much, for better or worse. Fact is I’m different somehow from the girl you knew a year ago, from that girl you used to see almost everyday.




When I started uni, I was terrified. Afraid about making friends, afraid to go to a new place and most of all afraid that one day, hanging out with you guys would turn into a burden. I was afraid that I would find my new friends cooler and better. Now all of a sudden, I am hanging out with a group of friends other than you guys. I was afraid I would have second thoughts about our friendship. I know that sounds evil, but it's true. I know and you know that this world works in horrifying ways.





I’m glad that everything is working out good, maybe even better. =D All my fears seem stupid now. We have bonded oven closer. Reunion with old friends is always a funny thing. We would meet back at the same nostalgic place, sit in the same old spot, and start cracking the same jokes thus releasing the same annoying laughter. We all still seem like the same idiots who can talk endlessly. My tummy still aches from attempting not to laugh out loud. And I'm happy for that biji of apple cause she seems happy but don't ask me what is it about cause it's not my secret to tell=).







remember the teachers who would want to punish us must use 1 metre yellow rulers to hit us on our palms?


remember that a bowl of mihun soup costed 50 cents at the school canteen?


remember those kind of 'bookgames' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play?


remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeth check?


remember that "Program Minum Susu"? ...... or milo I cannot remember.


remember the ghost stories that you told me just to get me to talk?


remember how frustrated you were when you asked me 5 questions and I only answered 1?












The kind of friends I have.
Makes my day.

So all we can do is make sure that those smiles and laughter do not fade into a mere memory of you and me. Let it be something we experience in the present for as long as possible.

Love,

me.

(Another) quick one and a lil' bit more.

i'm not sick, just feeling unwell.
i'm not vomiting, just vomiting blood.
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I am so nervous about these 2 weeks. I will be so busy, with assignments and exams around the corner. I don’t know how am I gonna pull through. =(


And I know I shouldn’t be blogging BUT I am very sure I will feel better after letting it all out so shut up don’t tell me to stop wasting my time blogging cause it is not.
[Gosh I am so nervous I typed the whole sentence out without punctuations]


So hear me rant.


There are times when I feel down. It's unexplainable. Well if you want me to explain this feeling I have... It is a feeling of emptiness. There isn’t a reason to be upset, but there isn’t a reason to be happy either. Like there's nothing there. I feel disorientated.


"i don't believe in needing a reason to be happy=)”


I don’t need a reason too, but of course a ship of chocolates is a very good reason to be happy=D. Ok the ranting ends here.
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Did you see the moon yesterday?
Sms has been circulating around,
Zi Wei has been telling me to look upon the sky yesterday night.
Something special from the moon.
She smiled.




obviously i googled this one.
i was so excited i forgot to take picture.



So cute right?
they say it happens every 100 years.
or 1000 years.
Guess it's a gift from the moon to the world,
especially those victims in Mumbai and Thailand.
Heavy toll on human life.
Painfully saddened, appalled and outraged
by this senseless, mindless, heartless
brutal act of violence.
And you question why this happened,
and is still happening.
I'll ask why.
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I didn't know I TALK IN MY SLEEP. And yesterday night was not the first time. From what I'm told by my roomie, who almost got a heart attack last night, I rarely say anything of consequence, but I speak as if I were awake and having a normal conversation. I don't shout, I don't sing, and I don't respond to people who try to talk back to me. But I was talking yesterday, LOUDLY, more like mumbling cause she couldn't catch what I said. So she decided to tell me. The truth. That I'm a sleep talker.

CONFIRMED.

What reallllly creeped her out though, was when she turned to look at me at one point,




















I WAS SMILING AT HER.


WHEN I WAS ASLEEP.


"LIKE THE JOKER GUY," Quote her.













WARAO DAMN SCARY CAN???!!!!!!!

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I'm sleepy, but I'm refusing myself of sleep.
I need coffee.
I had my first one last sem during finals. (yea you heard it right)
It was horrible,
because I am hopelessly incapable of mixing anything right
(coffee powder with milk or milo powder with milk )
Haih, what to do. It was either that,
or sleep and fail the paper.
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erm.
ok.
bye.