i thought it was over.

there are days where i'd just like to enter an empty room and not have anyone in it.
the definition of empty = no one.
but i know i'd get bored and would need human contact right after 3 minutes.



some days,
things just get to be too much.
and then when i want to go beserk,
when i usually hyperventilate,
i just keep quiet,
swallow the deep breathing and walk away.



i've had alot of nonsense to pass for a blog entry.
but it seems like everything has decided to go away.
so i've very bad time management.
maybe i should plan.
i've breakfast settled tomorrow. home home home!!
now if only i can settle what to wear tomorrow to meet my friends,
then i'm good to go.
oh and settle what to have for lunch as well.
oh and plan what to have for dinner.
then to plan what to do at home.
i don't think i can pretend to be busy much longer.
oh i know what to do already.
i think i should open my law books and study abit.
no i did that.
then i got sleepy.



i think i should stop letting myself get so sleepy.
i should stop thinking about redundant things.
it's taking over my whole thought process.
i think i will eat that bun i bought for supper.
no,
i'll still be hungry then no point,
i will waste more time.



okay bye.
waiting for papa to pick me up.
he's working late. again. :(
oh and i think i should stop suddenly telling people certain things.
because it's not really a need for them to know many many times.
it's more of me reassuring myself.



oh okay thanks bye.
take care people.



=D









never take someone for granted.
hold every person close to your heart.
because you might wake up one day
and realize that you've lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones.

yesterday.

watched wall-e with qiqi and lynn - checked
went to 8tv summer concert with lc - checked
being pushed by people - checked
pushed and stepped on other's foot - checked
screamed and shrieked when jam xiao came on stage - checked
got annoyed by these 2 guys standing beside me - checked
bumped into my secondary school friend wei jie - checked
supper at subaidah with lc, ekson, sin ling, wan jun, bao ru, and 2 guys plus 1 girl whom i don't know their names - checked
too tired to blog about what happened yesterday - checked



helooooo world!! weeeeeeeeeeee!!
i'm over the whole it's-exam-so-freak-out phase. it happens. haha.
hence i'm in a super gooood mood.
ok. world, (which is really just a few person),
the wall-e.
it's absolute heaven.
moving, genuinely heartwarming and laugh-out-loud funny.
i mean how could you not love wall-e?
and the talk-no-nonsense eve is so cool!
oddly, the humans have a lot less personality than the robots in the movie. hmm...
message from the movie:
environmental issue, commercialism, and mass obesity.
must watch must watch!!



summer concert was a blast!
all of us enjoyed it very much,
even though it resulted in muscle pain. T.T
i got the super fans rock zone ticket,
which mean i was very near with the stage. woohooo!
and oh, oh, it was freaking raining at first.
and of all things to worry about, like "nooo what if i fall sick?" or "i'm gonna catch a cold. die.", i saw someone worried about his hair.
anyway, because of the rain, people started showing off their pretty umbrellas, and thus, obstructing my view. fortunately the umbrellas were kept not long after the show started, otherwise i would've been watching the umbrella parade for 4 long hours.

but too bad i couldn't take picture coz the camera is with my bro,

so waiting for my friend to send me the pictures.

quite a number of hot stars from taiwan made it to this concert:

Jam Xiao!!!
awesensational.
the main reason why i wanted to get the ticket!!
i decided i'm gonna be a permanent fan of jam xiao.

for awhile.
he's 21. cute. and talented.
i'm developing a crush on him,
undeniably falling for him. lalalalala
love his songs.
love, love, love, love, love it.

Show Luo.

you have no idea how many hundred thousand girls came for him.

a talented dancer. and singer.

m addicted to his latest drama hot shot. hot!!

and there's this guy stanley huang whom i find very sexy.

the guy who sang 音浪太强，不晃，会被撞倒地上 ... or something.

hahahahahahahhahah.

aaaah! Jolin Tsai! aaaaah!

honestly though,

i thought she couldn't make it.

heard some lousy rumors about how she had some weird skin disease for sleeping with her pet dog. what the hell.

but she was amazing.

it was a beautiful day yesterday. :D





i've realized something,

i estimated my maximum usage of lah,

- about 200 times a day.

the lovely thing about lah is,

it adds a lot of character to your sentence.

you don't really need a perfect sentece to express what you're feeling.

so does hor, meh, wan, etc.

i can't!

-i cannot wan laaah!

funny isn't it?

-very the funny hor?

you bought?!

-you got buy meh?!

hehehehehehehe.

heyyy

hello world. :)
i know, i know, no excuse for me to be sitting here considering i should be pathetically doing assignments at my table like i should be for the next few days. this is like, potty-break or something. yes, i will bury my head soon.


my criminal law lecturer is sick.
so sick she can't wait to see all of us fail her subject.
so so sick she came out with bloody difficult questions that i couldn't answer.
so so so sick that she made me realize that i don't even need to study.
coz it would be damn hard anyway.
is it just me,
or does she brings this extremely unpleasant, sucky aura when she comes into class?


yes. i need to study.
yes. i can.
yes. i must.
yes. i will.
yes. this is utterly depressing.
i admit.
in addition to my *roll eyes* clumsiness,
i'm absent-minded.
which, doesn't help at all.
i tend to wander off every, say, 10 seconds?
like studying. i can speed read, with absolutely nothing going in.
and then i'd blow my fringe, fustrated, and reread.
the words seem familiar, then it amazes me.
and then the amazement "catch my breathe away",
then i'd have to reread again.
like in class. one minute, i'll be all ears and the next,
i'll be thinking about something totally irrelevant,
and then i'll fall into complete blurness,
and i'd somehow slowly slump in my chair, yawn, and....
especially during tort.
and i feel guilty not listening to her lecture.
she's not a bad lecturer really. she's just...
i prefer the previous lecturer.




i want to do a list.
tadaa!

the unpractical list of boys i want to date
1. the band boy - so he can sing and write songs for me
2. the concert scene boy- and he knows like all the local concert places and bands
3. the prankster - because he'll be fun
4. the well traveled guy- so he can give me souvenirs from all the cool places he has been, and invite me on his vacations
5. boy from another country- preferably korea, and you know why
6. the computer whiz- so he can fix mine whenever it is broken, free of charge

i realize this list is shallow,
but its my list and thats how its going to be. =P

or maybe i should try this:


dear santa:
help.
all the prince charming are either taken, or are frogs.
i don't believe in the existence of the ideal guy.
however, i would date a guy who can play guitar, cute, rich (optional), caring, sweet in a silly way and is able to make me laugh.
thank you.
love,
jin.

oh he replied!

dear jin:
the type of guy you are finding for is pretty extinct.
they are either taken, or are not interested.
and it's not christmas yet. geez.
and aren't you supposed to do your computer assignment?
why are you thinking about this rubbish?
irritated,
santa.


ouch.




whatever that used to be,
isn't anymore.
whoever you once were,
you're not anymore.
lost within yourself.
lost in a lie.
a road you choose.
a path you denied.
a person you let down.
a love you abandoned.
how did you get here ?
where do you go from here?
one day you'll know.
for now,
you just get by.




sunshine is a happy thing.
a good thing.
they say there can never be too much of a good thing.
i say... too much sunshine burns.


ok bye.

Wei To Go.

silver is a nice colour, no?

so this is it.

we've lost.

to that smelly egg.

i didn't manage to watch the match,

but i guess just like the many malaysians,

i was rooting for chong wei to win this match,

and bring glory to our home country.

i thought chong wei had a better chance of winning the finals compared to lin dan as he seemed to be in a better shape overall.

i thought it would be a historic win of overcoming the toughest challenge of it all, a win that will make the nation most proud of,

maybe for years to come.

not to mention,

the thought of malaysia will again be having a medal in the olympics!!

and no, it's not a mere bronze, but a chance for the gold :D

you know, i was hoping that we could end our gold-less drought,

once and for all...

at least we are not coming back colour-less.

heheh.

this is what is expected for a world class player -

to live to his billing,

which is what chong wei has done so far,

coming into the finals as the second seed.

it wasn't easy to take the pressure mentally and overcome the chinese supporters in the final.

so no matter what,

he is already a national hero.

and.

he is bagging rm300,000.00 from the government for a silver.

that is a lot of money. :)

i super like this picture :D

warning.

what on earth is______





then i saw this




"this rating was determined based on the presence of the following words in your blog:
dead (3x)
pissed (2x)
hurt (1x)"




oohhhh.


liddat also can?!!
fine.
let's see.



-i'm going to a beautiful. peaceful place where angles serve drinks.

-i'm ____ but i cannot type it out coz you will feel offended. and also because that word is under parental guidance. so you can fill in the blank yourself. you do know how i feel right now. right?

-my heart is bleeding. wait. blood. too violent for children. ok. how about this. i'm having a major depressive disorder and i can't find anything i can put my heart and soul into. soft enough eh?




i don't want my blog to look like that.
not in a million years.







wait a minute.
is that my micky?
is that his new hairstyle?
omo..
it's very...
EDGE-Y.
but actually he looks fine.
freakishly cute.
in a weird way.
don't worry you still have my love.
:tongue.





p.s. hwaiting chong wei!!
do us proud ♥
beat that chou ji dan!!

flip the script.

and now something just for fun :)
it seems to me that it's a growing trend these days to give band a name that is hard to pronouce, and also have a secret message in it that only the band understands...
some of them are hilarious,
some are mind blowing,
and some are just dumb.
i mean,
i dunno about their music
but,
the sound of animals fighting?
natalie portman's shaved head??
and this undisputable winner.
up up down down left right left right b a start???
i found out later that it's a code for ninendo's contra to get 9 lives.
they use a cheat code as their band name?!!


sigh.
stuck smack in the middle of the intersection of
Nothing To Eat
and
Too Lazy To Cook.


procrastination.
at the start,
the word is always very appealing.
but,
nearing the dateline,
you're cursing and swearing.
honest.


i feel urgh.
very URGH.
bang-wall kind of URGH.

syrup and honey.

that,
is for celebration. :)






need i say more?
exam's gone.
like elvis.
like heath ledger.
well, not really, they're like, permanently dead.
i still have criminal law and malaysian studies paper next week.
and. let's not talk about the exams i just had.
it's over anyway.


things had been so-so.
haven't had time to daydream.
pissed with nothing to be pissed at.
fustrated yet not depressed.
ok.
so i dropped my cellphone again. for the nth time.
i cannot get the stupid speaker to work
now i have to shout everytime i call.
my phone doesn't qualify to be existing. at all.
don't come around and show off your canggih phone in front of me.

maybe i want to take it for a swim.

heheh.


i confess.
sometimes, i feel reluctant to greet people,
because i might not get any respond.
utter awkwardness.
on the other hand,
when someone waves at my direction,
i wouldn't wanna be the one hello-ing two feet away,
and be told, actually, i'm waving at her.
so my way?

smile.
or, walk up really close to that someone and shout hello!! perkily.
it can be irritating

but i wouldn't want you to be the one ignored. :)


anyway.
i like the song i posted above.
it's eisley - marsh king's daughter.
eisley is a rock band from texas.
i like this song so so much, it sounds pretty radical.
it makes me warm,
like a hot soup during rainny days. :)

Download



going out for supper. :D

jumble of nonsense.

a lot had happened today!!


studies,
library,
chor dai di extreme,
studies,
studies,
and i can't think of any more.


i did a to-do list,
and i had thought that my to-do list wouldn't end.
but ah!
it ends after 4 entries.
then i X_x
because that means i actually have very little to complain about.
i know.
i complain and whine a lot.
but only when i'm blogging hor.


blardy msn sucks.
so my messages keep bouncing back.
so i cannot chat on msn.
so i cannot bother people on msn.
so i cannot be bothered by people on msn.
so tonight i will sleep without chatting on msn.


i forgot something very important.
more like,
i didn't know before this
and i just found out today.
my stupidness has gone up to a whole new level.


i had coffee
and i'm feeling sleepy now.
have to get up early tomorrow
for ptptn's.
which is the thing i just found out.
snort.


Good night people.
XOXO.

i'm back!

no la.
just to make sure i'm not dead.
yet.



i haven't enjoyed my holiday.
i haven't done much.
i had touched the book.
i never said i read it.
i fell asleep la weii.



anyway.
i watched the olympics opening ceremony the other day.
it was awesome!!
whoever said chinese culture is dull can go and eat their words now.
the efforts they've put in.
their waves were adorable!!
in addition to the pressure for perfection,
which was achieved,
they had to remember to smile so they wouldn't intimidate tv audiences.
my favourite moment,
when 9-year-old earthquake survivor lin hao
who freed himself from the rubble of his school
then returned to rescue 2 of his classmates,
joined china flagbearer yao ming.
and when yao ming looked down at lin hao,
and showed him how to wave to the crowd. :)




one world one dream.



ok bye.
*sits in a corner under a rain cloud*



with my notes.






my ulcers hurt.
don't talk to me.

Tick of time.

it's AUGUST?

where does the time go?
what happened to all the
awesome
wonderful
exciting
productive things
I was supposed to do this year?

better get on it.


happy holidays
happy studying.





the one i love.

I just realized what i've just realized.

how much i miss my dong bang boys.
it has been ages since i updated myself with their news..



and they've got themselves a number one in japan again!!
this time around with their latest single "why did i fall in love with you"
yay a big YAYY :D



they’re inching their way up there little by little
the 1st foreign artist to have three number 1 singles on the oricon chart
which is like the chart in japan

i would've been surprised if this didn't make it to number one.
such a catchy tune :)

of course they don’t have the best voices in the world
there are tons of better singers out there
but i think what sets tvxq apart is the effort they put in whatever they do. i mean, after following them for 3 years already

(and yes, i do have a life outside of kpop :P),

there isn’t a single band that has impacted me as much as dong bang has. when i went for their concert last year, the sheer amount of effort they put into every single song and performance was just amaaaazing.



for those of you who don't understand the hype, or think that they have the looks and only the looks, and scoring points with the teeny boppers because of their looks and nothing else....
well good for you because millions in asia and across the world feel differently.



can't please everyone.
but they’ve definitely pleased a lot for this single to go to #1.

*grins*

ok so this picture isn't really related to this post, but don't you think it's sweet?

don't you?

watch



listen



and download :)








but there's one thing that got me thinking.
when everyone expects nothing less than #1..
what are you going to do next,
discover a cure for cancer?

I'm just tired so i'm babbling.

i watch tv series and movies when everyone is sound asleep
i turn off the light
i shut everything else out.


i watched starter for 10
i watched evan almighty
i watched ice age1
i watched 21
i watched casanova
i watched love and other disasters
i watched my tutor friend2
i watched camp rock
i watched lotsa movies.


i think i'm in a strange mood phase.

pms,
who knew.

i sigh a huge sigh and :(


nite people.