heyyy

hello world. :)
i know, i know, no excuse for me to be sitting here considering i should be pathetically doing assignments at my table like i should be for the next few days. this is like, potty-break or something. yes, i will bury my head soon.


my criminal law lecturer is sick.
so sick she can't wait to see all of us fail her subject.
so so sick she came out with bloody difficult questions that i couldn't answer.
so so so sick that she made me realize that i don't even need to study.
coz it would be damn hard anyway.
is it just me,
or does she brings this extremely unpleasant, sucky aura when she comes into class?


yes. i need to study.
yes. i can.
yes. i must.
yes. i will.
yes. this is utterly depressing.
i admit.
in addition to my *roll eyes* clumsiness,
i'm absent-minded.
which, doesn't help at all.
i tend to wander off every, say, 10 seconds?
like studying. i can speed read, with absolutely nothing going in.
and then i'd blow my fringe, fustrated, and reread.
the words seem familiar, then it amazes me.
and then the amazement "catch my breathe away",
then i'd have to reread again.
like in class. one minute, i'll be all ears and the next,
i'll be thinking about something totally irrelevant,
and then i'll fall into complete blurness,
and i'd somehow slowly slump in my chair, yawn, and....
especially during tort.
and i feel guilty not listening to her lecture.
she's not a bad lecturer really. she's just...
i prefer the previous lecturer.




i want to do a list.
tadaa!

the unpractical list of boys i want to date
1. the band boy - so he can sing and write songs for me
2. the concert scene boy- and he knows like all the local concert places and bands
3. the prankster - because he'll be fun
4. the well traveled guy- so he can give me souvenirs from all the cool places he has been, and invite me on his vacations
5. boy from another country- preferably korea, and you know why
6. the computer whiz- so he can fix mine whenever it is broken, free of charge

i realize this list is shallow,
but its my list and thats how its going to be. =P

or maybe i should try this:


dear santa:
help.
all the prince charming are either taken, or are frogs.
i don't believe in the existence of the ideal guy.
however, i would date a guy who can play guitar, cute, rich (optional), caring, sweet in a silly way and is able to make me laugh.
thank you.
love,
jin.

oh he replied!

dear jin:
the type of guy you are finding for is pretty extinct.
they are either taken, or are not interested.
and it's not christmas yet. geez.
and aren't you supposed to do your computer assignment?
why are you thinking about this rubbish?
irritated,
santa.


ouch.




whatever that used to be,
isn't anymore.
whoever you once were,
you're not anymore.
lost within yourself.
lost in a lie.
a road you choose.
a path you denied.
a person you let down.
a love you abandoned.
how did you get here ?
where do you go from here?
one day you'll know.
for now,
you just get by.




sunshine is a happy thing.
a good thing.
they say there can never be too much of a good thing.
i say... too much sunshine burns.


ok bye.