life's like that.

if looks could kill,
























and



then i'm dead now.
in peace. =)






school.
is starting in 10 days.
gonna set up a new column -
new inspiration/new goals.
i think i'm someone that needs new goals to be placed inside my head constantly.



someone,
somewhere,
find me a new inspiration or motivation.
movies, episodes, dreams,
are all wonderful but they don't last.
on another note,
i should get out of my house tomorrow.
i have a habit of staying at home too much.



seriously,
these two weeks have been nothing but,
emptiness i guess.
the time sleeping has been comforting.
don't be lazy, me.



yesterday was spent rushing through season1 of lipstick jungle.
worthy watching,
for that eye candy kirk,
the hunk you saw up there. =))))





and here i am,
on a thursday afternoon all alone in the house,
behaving like an old single lady,
deciding what to do.
continue my tv,
out for a run ,
eat my heart out,
or just listening to sad sappy songs.




i think i shall eat,
run,
shower,
and start the night with my heroes season3.
buhbai. =D

i'm left handed.

late at night,
it feels almost lonely when you're the only light in the house.
quiet, serene, but distant.
ladidaaa.




first thing first.
happy belated birthday to mommy and yew!
i got mommy one of those osim thingy,
with papa's money.
oh i've bought something for yew too,
call me ar.
i really miss the girlfriend.
we keep saying that we've to meet up sometime,
but we never get to doing so.
lol,
let's just get comfortable with the grand idea of meeting up then.




i'm decaying.
watch me rot.
smell my decomposing flesh.
being bored alone is super hilarious.
because now,
i'm giving random people on friendster testimonials.
i'm even bored of sleeping.
save me.




watched some hokkien drama with mommy.
bonding session.
heheh.
a long running soap,
stretching to hundreds of episodes.
too lenghty for me.
it stretches to the third or fourth generation now.
basically it's conversation,
conversation and more conversation.
but it does have some drama.=)
and they say one of those signs of getting old is this:
you start loving hokkien dramas.
O_o




have been watching tv so much these days,
couch potato is now a far understatement.
i have morphed into a tv series junkie.
it's like you tell yourself,
"okay this is the last episode,
after this you better get off the couch!"
and then!
this last episode always end in a cliffhanger!
then you say,
"i only want to know what happens next!"
and then you sit there for another few hours,
until you take your meal then feel so sleepy after that and go to bed.




i am told that i lose interest easily.
i don't need to be told.
i already know.
i think it's my indecisive nature.




ok la.
i guess all my thoughts have gone out the window.
oh i want to watch hsm3!


toodles.

and so.

meet my new hamster.



i know.
=).

mian mian is dead.

i never want to have another hamster again.
they keep dying in my care.





my housemate knocked on my door,
and told me that she thought the hamster was dead.
i shoke the cage gently.
i shoke the cage a little harder.
i really shoke the cage.
he moved.


he was not doing well for the past few days.
he was breathing very shallowly and infrequently.
and he did not seem responsive.
when i picked him up,
he opened his eyes and squirmed a little.
he didn't kick like he always would,
he just sat in my hands,
and waited for me to put him back into the cage.


i held him and stroked him and tried to keep him awake.
i blew some air at him regularly.
me and my housemates spent the whole night trying to save him,
his final breath did not seem any different.
he just inhaled and never exhaled.







rest in peace mian mian.
love always.

within and beyond;

ohohoh



i have reached the point where i'm tired.
absolutely drained.
this is bad.
because i may have bitten off more than i can chew.



last paper tomorrow =DDDD
and it still seems as though i'm not kan cheong.
because i'm still typing away.
and i'm serious when i say that i'm not even speed typing.











two different ways to say the same thing,
two different persons to say the same thing,
it's just a couple of words strung together.
and it saddens me.

riding on a merry-go-round.

hello hello hello.



so you know how when you have absolutely nothing to do,
you look for things to do?
well,
i've loads of things to do,
yet i still look for things to do.
because i choose not to do that i have to do?




it’s called de-stressing,
not procrastinating.
really.




is it bad that i've been feeling utterly lazy?
not lazy like the normal lazy.
that is a constant for me.
as in i'm lazy to drag myself to study.
and i'm thinking if i can just do a disappearing act of sorts.
but that would be very irresponsible of me.
damn.
that means i won't be doing the disappearing act after all.
it stinks when i've a conscience. T.T






brain is mush.
no want think.
blegh.






it is not procrastination.
honest.





#edit#
my poor neck.
fell asleep on the table last night,
but it feels like the table fell asleep on me.

sunny day =).

fujiki kazue - sunny day

what spilled down
wasn’t a tear
but a praying voice.
what i looked up at
was the sun above the clouds.



it seems so exceptional
things just work out after all
it’s just another ordinary miracle today.







so i guess in a way i'm treating myself.
even when the storm hasn't passed at all.
so to speak.

重点是什么。

the weather is super good.
i listen to the rain pitter patter.
then the lightning came,
followed by thunders.
i want to sleep.
thinking whether i can fall asleep tonight,
in order to read more tomorrow
is also making me very stressful.




i'm having a headache,
sigh.
i think there's something wrong with my pillow,
lol.
my phone's mad again,
why is taylor swift singing so what by pink,
sigh.




i studied a bit,
and i cannot remember pratically everything.
i'm staring at the notes blankly.
i know it's the same drama,
i hate it.
i just need a place to drain out all this rubbish.





okla,
nite. (=
yup yup it's a terbalik smiley =)

i'm stalking.

i tend to be very obsessive.
once i focus my attention on something,
it's all i think about.
i have taken a liking to,
psych.

i've been a psych fan
the first time i saw an episode that sara gave me,
a few days ago.
the premise: cop-wanna-be pretends to be psychic to solve crimes on a consulting basis. it's mystery meets comedy meets buddy show.
but i think it's more comedy than mystery =D
hilarity does ensue.
i get so psych!!
heheh.




and the lead character,
shawn spencer.
my oh my.
how arrogant this guy seemed.
how cool he must think himself to be.
how he must think he can get a way
with his charm and cutesy gestures and grins.
but he's really funny!! =DDD
i like.




this is a as a matter of fact kind of crush.
no,
it's not a dumb giggly school girl crush.
fine maybe it is.
can it be called a crush?
i'm not too sure.
never mind,
i fancy.





Gus:
You named your fake detective agency "Psych?"
Why not just call it "Hey, We're Fooling You and the Police Department. Hope We Don't Make a Mistake and Someone Dies Because of It?"


Shawn:
First of all, Gus, that name is entirely too long; it would never fit on the window! And secondly, the best way to convince people you're not lying to them is to tell them you are!

update #1

because i couldn't think of a better title.
i have been totally out of it these days.
i forget things within a split second.
words just cruise into my left ear and out my right.
and i've been more than restless.
but i can't sleep.



i'm not feeling my best these few days.
i get the dizzy spells,
the tummy ache,
and the muscle-ache.
i need ample rest.



somehow i'm more rajin when there isn't an exam.
i don't know why.
it's like when exam is here you get that 'study later' syndrome.
then when you finally sit down you realised,
there's so damn much more to study.
then at that point,
you vowed to never procrastinate again.
but the process just keeps repeating itself.
it's just so amusing to watch.





caught up with an old friend just now.
things are same old same old.



to rinoa.
i'm not siao char bo.
and syongah is not a mangkali name.
was webcamming with her.
that girl ah,
talking to her made my blood go upstairs a bit. =P




someone is bringing me their album from korea.
thanks for the favor colin. =D
mwah mwah
have been waiting forever for this.
for me to talk about my reaction to this album,
you have to understand how i got into tvxq in the first place.
you don't wanna know?
i'm still going to tell.


it started with these variety shows 3 years ago.
ya shim man man and xman.
max was talking about watching porn,
uknow revealed he had man-boobs,
hero revealed unabashedly that he was hungry for popularity,
xiah with his dolphin voice was telling really bad jokes,
and micky was just greasy.


funny group.
but i've decided to like them. =)





okay la,
i tired already.

oh boy.

this.

is how i feel now. =)

blog later.

sshhhhhhleeeep.

p.s i love bed.

"hey, what else do you do nowadays besides studying, eating, sleeping and um, studying?"



i bet you're thinking i would answer - nothing.

WRONG.

i blog too.
heheh.



going through.
thinking through.
processiong through.


it's the songs that gets me through the day.
that,
and coffee with
a whole lot of sugar.
it's only then that i am not afraid to be up in the wee hours of the morning. it's only then i smile like there isn't a tomorrow.


i am having a headache.
i shall go rest my pretty head.
=).


to end everything,
exams are uber near.
please and thank you.



don't ask me what it's all about.
when i know,
i'll let you know.=)



nola this is not emo.

10 trillion kilometers away.

hello=).

there has been alot of unrest around and within me lately.
i have decided to set aside after giving it much thought.
you only live once so why bother with all the complicated stuff.
=).



do a tag? yes?
yes.
ok.




kita akan tau jawapannya,




*smirk smirk*...............
*wink wink*...............
*smirk somemore*






selepas ini.




and the way he says "selepas ini" will sound like seh-leh-pus-e-nay.






anyways.



1. at what age do you wish to marry?
now right now.


2. if you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
i want you to do plastic surgery to look like tvxq. any one of them also can. can anot tarling?


3. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
of course not la! crazy meh?


micky wo ai ni!!


okay so maybe yes in another language so he won't understand.



5. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
requirements ar.
must look like micky lor what you expect.



4. if you win $1 million now, what would you do?
demolish mmu.
yes it probably won't be enough.
so thanks in advance for your kind donation.


5. which type of person do you hate the most?
i spread love only. PEACE.


6. what is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
nothing lar! i told you i think everybody is good!


now i'm going to die of guilt for lying...


7. if you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
may and siew mee cuz i love their their babbles and rantings.
yew cuz she has shine light in my life for 6 years. (her blog is private so it's not on the list)
rinoa cuz she's the real love of my life.



my math is still good ok.


siew mee and yew are super thin so they're considered as half of the human being.



8. do you believe you can survive without money?
no.


9. what are you afraid to lose the most?
my love for you.


10. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
marry micky.

ei who say you cannot marry a mushroom?

i don't know what else to say already.
my mind is trying to be damn serious like dark comedy but my heart is so happy like slap-stick comedy. at the end, lame comedy is produced and we all know that is the unfunniest kind of comedy.


okay bye.






i like. =)

Download

my sunshine.

tvxq-ed once again.
the fastest and easiest way to make me happy
with all the routines i have.
watched their 1st comeback performance on sbs inkigayo.
it made me cry.
it was really really nice.
but hero was sick,
and his voice was a bit strained.
hope he gets well soon.
mirotic is erotic. :D








xiah at mbc radio station.
♥ su is sooo cute!
i want to put him in my pocket for safe-keeping.
only i can't coz he belongs to joceyn. =P









yup yup that's my mushroom micky.
purely love.





look what i've found.
the definition of fangirl:

noun.

known to rave,
squeal,
post until all hours of the night,
faint,
drool,
save excessive amouts of photos,
procrastinate,
and say "ohmygosh".
see also:

complete nutter.








the little things make me laugh.
see,
it's not hard to please me. :)
i need to chill.
it's not the end of the world.

she cried him a river.

IU - Mia

because i just love her.
this song is exceptional, displaying a hybrid pop sound with dramatic strings in the background. she joins the ranks of numerous new artists who deluged this year's kpop stage, but she truly shines amongst them all. :) and she's only 15!
download




you know what to do when you're stressed?
read stressed backward.
yes.
but my yummy-looking mini cake does not taste yummy.
it's a sad, sad day when desserts fail you.




i have too many things to do in too little time.
no joke this time.
and it all rhymes.
what the hell.
i wish i had more hands.
and time.
and brains.
mmm, brains.



it's probably because its that time of the month again.
because today i woke up,
feeling like all sense of hope is lost.
i knew this dreary friday morning was bad news,
the moment i caught a glimpse of my reflection.
the dreadfulness that usually greeted me
was replaced with a newer improved freak,
complete with dark eye circles.
i'm going insane really.
please.
just let me get over this.





oh oh have you read perez hilton?
he is officially addicted to kpop!
the most annyoying thing is this bunch of people going on the comment section pleading for some exposure to their kpop artists ...
people have some dignity, will ya?
this comment really cracks me up tho,

gaytards:
"perez, i fear for your life if you do plug tvxq and dislike their songs, as their fanbase have no social life and would commit crimes against you. they will want you DEAD! and we cannot have our favourite blogger dead now can we?! "

i'm a die-hard tvxq's fan
but sometimes the cassiopeias do get a bit out of control. :P


speaking of kpop news,
i was shocked when i found out that another korean star committed suicide. this time choi jin shil.
why are there so many cases of artist dying this year?
i just can’t stop thinking how korean entertainers are so prone to tragedy lately,
accidents,
suicides,
their everywhere.


grabbed from heechul's cy






on a lighter note,
happy belated birthday to my brother,
who claims i terrorized him from the day he was born and am the direct cause of the nervous twitch in his left eye.
he's one year younger but one time bigger than me.
so it kinda evens out. :P
lotsa lotsa love!!




love,
gimme strength.