mian mian is dead.

i never want to have another hamster again.
they keep dying in my care.





my housemate knocked on my door,
and told me that she thought the hamster was dead.
i shoke the cage gently.
i shoke the cage a little harder.
i really shoke the cage.
he moved.


he was not doing well for the past few days.
he was breathing very shallowly and infrequently.
and he did not seem responsive.
when i picked him up,
he opened his eyes and squirmed a little.
he didn't kick like he always would,
he just sat in my hands,
and waited for me to put him back into the cage.


i held him and stroked him and tried to keep him awake.
i blew some air at him regularly.
me and my housemates spent the whole night trying to save him,
his final breath did not seem any different.
he just inhaled and never exhaled.







rest in peace mian mian.
love always.